dyaJ.

Bebesutsut

2012-01-20T12:00:00.000+08:00

And so we departed from Shah Alam to Imtiaz the school of excellence in Besut Terengganu somewhere around 1030 am in the morning.

And arrived there around 9.30 pm on the same day. The journey took us 11 freaking hours. Lama gila but we filled the time with games and such in the bus. Bila sampai, I was very amazed to see the boys were wearing all-white jubah dan di tangan masing2 ada sebuah Al Quran. :') We discussed stuff and went to the guest house for a good nervous sleep. Lulz.

The next morning, bergerak lah muka muka gembira ini menuju ke dewan sekolah yang melets itu.

Segan juga melihat pelajar tahfiz yang muda muda itu, dengan tudung labuh bagai. Kecil juga rasa diri. However, they were really supportive especially the Form Two Students.

And we went home the very next day. Unfortunately we didn't get the opportunity untuk ke kedai keropok lekor and we were frustrated of the bus drivers. Boleh tak dia kata bas tak elok, tayar bocor and stuff when kita nak pergi beli belah when actually malam sebelum balik tu, diorang pergi memborong keropok lekor untuk diri sendiri? And they drove laju gila and didn't even stop for lunch. We got to eat at 6.30 di Benta and that's all. :'(

Everything was fine actually. Terengganu ada banyak masjid yang cantik. I like the students and they really inspire me. :)

#U6Bthemelets.

Masjid kayu di Besut. Awesome architectural.

love♥
dyaJ

Lindo.

2012-01-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

We had our very first paper yesterday.

And

Lin's birthday.

So, she baked us, the classmates carrot cake and Ikah made scrumptious kek batik. And before we grab some lunch of the day, we played hide-and-seek ya, di fac tu pastu we played some ridiculous game by WanZu. Haha. Kelakar.

Anyways,

Happy 22nd Birthday kakak Lin! Lulz. 22 is the age of love. Eh!

May Allah bless you. Always.

love♥
dyaJ

Slipsleep.

2012-01-06T03:16:00.001+08:00

Hai.

I arrived here in Shah Alam sometime at 1830hrs with a new record of 3-hour journey only, where i'd never drove from home to here in less than 3.30hrs. So okaylah. Very good, traffic was okay, I didn't fell asleep and alhamdulillah, i arrived safely here. And Mak sangat amazed kenapa cepat sangat sampai. Ya lah, cuba imagine, kalau naik bas sampai 5 jam kot. :)

Anyways, I have class tomorrow. Right, a class on the study leave and on Saturday, my very first paper, #-hour paper, Contemporary Literature. Gigih sebelum datang sini td I've printed the exam slips haha. Two. Another is for the 2nd paper, Sociolinguistics next Friday. Haah, I have yet to study and I really hope tomorrow's class will help me. Hehe

Oh good luck okay those yang sedang menempuhi peperiksaan juga. Ingatlah, keputusan yang baik kalau takde sahsiah dan personaliti yang mantap pun takleh jugak! Haha.

p.s : Haah,memang buku kartun Apo? kat bawah exam slips tu. Lulz.

love ♥

dyaJ

#1

2012-01-02T04:17:00.000+08:00

Yesza. I've changed the layout since i need more space for pictures and I changed the header too. No more dinosaur thingies, I'm moving on to 'theNomad' hehe. I love it. Yeay.

Err.

So, what I did yesterday was..,

We had fun. Though it may be just for few hours. Okay lah tu.

love♥

dyaJ

Pergi sebelas.

2012-01-01T04:14:00.000+08:00

2011 was not the best year I've had. Especially when I was in part 5. Horrendous terrible betul last semester. Though we still need to sit for two papers for final this up coming 7th and 13th. Can't wait can't wait. Research Methodology was shitbrix susah susah susah, creative writing was a lotttttttttt. Perit tau tak, perit betul semester lepas.

So, there's always good things in sour grapes. Kan? Lulz.

Thus, there are 10 things I love best in 2011, itu pun tak dikira dari awal tahun sbb most of the pictures are gone, I don't know where I keep 'em. Haha.

1. 6th UiSF 2011

Universitas Batam, from Indonesia! Love love love. :D I took care of them this year. And so, we got to go shopping together, and stuff. We know each other quite well, since 2009 and so we were fine during the event. So, yeahh.

2. Batam Trip

The next few (two) months, Fana and I went there. Yeahh a backpacking trip for two! We were proud ladies. Luls. We didn't meet everyone since they have some nationwide tournament and stuff, still, we had fun meeting friends friends friends and eat good food and stuff. A very nice experience indeed. Seriously.

3. Eid Mubarak

The first image I took on the 1st Syawal. Not much to say, the red sandals were mine. Others were like erm, I'm not sure. Some belongs to cousins and such. Kot. Haha

4. Frinjan the 24, 25 and 26

Yea yea. I went to all three, back to back since the performers were different each time. I went there to watch the indie and acoustic performances and may be to buy some books. Or scarves. Okaylah. Thanks everyone yang went there with me. Shu, Johan, Ikah, AJ bagai.

5. Debat 211Jam tanpa henti

Bebebep. Haha.

6. The Secret Life of Nora

An awesome show. I love the costumes, I love the hero Ryan Silverman; he has a very nice voice. I really really like the fact that we were sitting at the stalls. Haha. Awesome awesome. However, we couldn't make it to Badai Semalam and Semerah Padi. Sad enough but what to do, we're too busy with the stuff, you-know-what. Ha, even the money; we didn't get it yet. Ish.

7. Ethos! Talentime

Excellent. I need to improve when performing. and I just love the JaiHo.

8.SAF

Oh, kalah dengan APB dalam squasy. Lulz.

9. Kata Kita

An event held at Publika, seri Hartamas not far from SA. Quite a nice event but it was somehow, kinda boring. Erm maybe because we arrived there a bit late and the poem recital thingies dah lepas. However Publika is really a nice place. Dia macam tempat cool and not many people went there, err with all this round decorated thingies, they are so beautiful I got to snap few pictures of them. Very inspiring. :D

10. Boco!

Ahah. A very nice event especially the perfprmances. I like it like a lot. I bought Two Months and A Day by AdiWafi and Telegram by Mosyuki Borhan. There were book-launching by FIXI. I went there a bit late since I had to go to UPNM due to some Bengkel Kehakiman for some Debat stuff and I arrived there around 2, kot. Paling best, I didn't miss Asboon's performance walaupun dia sorang je yg datang! Takpe. Teringat bila diorang sang me birthday song last February di GB. Awwh ;') Haha

So, that's how I cherish my mid 2011. Takdelah best sangat, tapi boleh lah. Haha. How's yours?

love♥
dyaJ

2011-12-24T18:58:00.000+08:00

Ini bukan untuk saya sahaja, ini untuk kita,semua.

love♥

dyaJ

Because his words are damn true.

2011-12-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

TAKUT
by Dr. Mahathir bin Mohamad on Tuesday, 20 December 2011 at 21:46

1. Kita semua tahu takut. Kita takut sakit. Kita takut kehilangan mereka yang disayangi. Kita takut dicedera atau dibunuh orang. Kita takut iman digugat. Kita takut mati. Kita takut dan kita patut takut. Sedikit sebanyak ia menyelamat kita.

2. Tetapi kadang-kadang kita takut kepada yang kita tidak patut takut. Kita takut gelap. Kita takut makhluk yang sebenarnya tidak wujud melainkan dalam fikiran kita atau dari cerita-cerita yang kita dengar, terutama semasa kecil.

3. Ramai kita orang Melayu percaya ada manusia yang mempunyai kelebihan tertentu – mampu meresap, menghilangkan diri. Dan kita takut kepada mereka ini.

4. Semasa saya kecil saya dengar kononnya orang Siam mempunyai “ilmu” tertentu. Mereka bukan sahaja boleh meresap tetapi mereka kebal dan tidak boleh ditikam. Ada yang berkata tembak dengan peluru pun tak tembus. Mereka juga boleh membuat perempuan gila kepada mereka.

5. Di Kedah peperangan sering berlaku dengan Siam (Thai) di zaman dahulu. Tentera Sultan amat takut kepada askar Siam. Mereka yakin mereka tidak boleh kalahkan tentera Siam kerana mereka itu kebal, boleh meresap. Kononnya kadang-kadang mereka boleh terbang dan tiba-tiba berada di belakang.

6. Maka anggota pasukan Melayu pun baca doa macam-macam. Namun mereka tidak dapat mengatasi ketakutan mereka. Belum pun bertempur dengan pasukan perang Siam, mereka sudah yakin mereka akan kalah.

7. Dan mereka pun kalah kerana tidak percaya mereka boleh menang. Mereka tidak pun dapat mempertahankan diri mereka. Mereka kaku disebabkan ketakutan. Dan askar Siam boleh menyembelih mereka.

8. Yang lain melarikan diri, tidak berani mengadap orang kebal, boleh meresap, boleh tiba-tiba berdiri di atas pokok di belakang pasukan Melayu.

9. Demikian apabila kita takut dengan “bayang-bayang” kepercayaan kita sendiri. Adalah mustahil sesiapa boleh kebal, atau meresap (menghilangkan diri). Sedangkan Nabi tidak kebal dan luka dalam peperangan Jabal Uhud, apakah Tuhan memberi kelebihan kepada musuh orang Melayu dan orang Islam.

10. Mungkinkah ada makhluk yang berkuasa seperti Allah s.w.t. Sekarang ada orang kebal apabila memakai baju kalis peluru. Tetapi askar Siam di zaman dahulu tidak pakai baju kalis peluru. Jika mereka ditikam atau ditembak mereka akan cedera dan akan mati. Tetapi mereka kebal kerana dengan ketakutan kita, kita tidak terdaya menikam atau menembak mereka. Kalau tembak pun, kerana gigil dalam ketakutan, peluru tidak kena sasaran. Ini kononnya bukti mereka kebal.

11. Tetapi ini cerita lama. Apa guna saya bangkit perkara ini. Sebabnya saya masih dengar askar kita ada menghadapi orang yang berpakaian serba putih yang boleh terbang. Dan mereka jadi takut. Apabila askar diserang ketakutan, mereka tidak lagi dapat menjalankan tugas mereka.

12. Kita juga kerap mendengar cerita orang halus, toyol, hantu, pelesit dan berbagai lagi. Kes hilang akal (hysteria) kerap berlaku di kalangan murid perempuan Melayu di asrama.

13. Apa yang berlaku ialah pada malam hari mereka berkumpul dan mencerita berkenaan hantu atau sesuatu yang menakutkan. Mendengar cerita mereka berasa gerun dan ternampak bayang bergerak seolah ada makhluk di samping mereka. Apabila di pandang tidak ada apa-apa. Seorang dari mereka akan menjerit ketakutan. Dan yang lain akan turut sama. Dan jadilah fenomena hysteria beramai-ramai.

14. Sebenarnya kita biasa melihat gerakan di hujung mata (peripheral vision) dan apabila kita beralih untuk melihat, didapati tidak ada apa-apa. Ini adalah fenomena biasa.

15. Saya malu kenapa hysteria terjadi kepada anak Melayu yang semuanya beragama Islam. Agama kita menegah kepercayaan kepada makhluk yang mempunyai kuasa yang hampir dengan Allah s.w.t.

16. Diwaktu rusuhan kaum 13 Mei 1969, rami orang Melayu yang mencari ubat kebal. Di Alor Star terdapat seorang bomoh Indonesia yang kononnya boleh memberi kekebalan kepada sesiapa hanya dengan memasukan jarun “emas” ke dalam badan.

17. Saya pergi untuk melihat bagaimana bomoh ini dapat melakukan sesuatu yang ajaib. Seorang yang dikenali oleh saya telah “dirawat” dengan memasuk jarum “emas” kepada badannya.

18. Selepas ini dia diuji dengan ditetak oleh bomoh dengan pedang di belakangnya. Terlihat luka yang cetek yang berdarah sedikit sahaja walaupun ditetak dengan amat kuat.

19. Kemudian dia ditetak dibahagian perutnya. Luka yang sama di lihat. Dia kemudian memepak kaca lampu elektrik tanpa mulutnya berdarah.

20. Mereka yang lihat dan saya juga kagum dengan kekebalan beliau. Saya jemput supaya beliau datang ke klinik saya keesokan hari.

21. Apabila dia datang saya bertanya bolehkah saya cucuk jarum kedalam badannya. Dia mendakwa jarum tak mungkin masuk kerana dia tidak mengizinkannya.

22. Saya cucuk dan jarum masuk seperti biasa. Dia tidak kebal.

23. Tidak ada orang yang kebal. Mereka yang berjalan atas bara api dan dicucuk dengan besi tajam pun tidak kebal.

24. Dalam Islam ada jin dan iblis. Mereka merasuk fikiran kita supaya membuat apa yang dilarang. Dalam Islam tidak disebut tentang hantu, pelesit, toyol dan sebagainya. Semua ini berasas kepada kepercayaan di zaman pra-Islam.

25. Kita dapati ramai yang gemar mendengar cerita seram. Menyedari akan kegemaran ini banyaklah filem yang dibuat sekitar hantu, toyol dan makhluk luar biasa yang menakutkan. Filem seperti ini sering ditunjuk di TV dan pawagam.

26. Mungkin pengeluar filem seram ini mendapat keuntungan. Tetapi cerita-cerita seperti ini tidak menolong remaja menolak kepercayaan kepada yang karut yang tidak membina peribadi yang baik. Kes-kes hysteria ada kaitan dengan kepercayaan yang karut.

27. Menjadi penakut memalukan. Bangsa yang penakut tidak boleh dibanggakan. Janganlah kita sengaja menjadikan bangsa kita bangsa penakut. Sebaliknya cubalah supaya bangsa kita jadi lebih berani. Ahli-ahli politik pun tak usahlah cari bomoh kerana ingin menang. Bukan bomoh yang boleh beri kemenangan. Budi yang baik, tingkah laku yang sopan, keperihatinan akan masalah yang dihadapi rakyat yang boleh memberi kemenangan dan kejayaan.

28. Melayu mempunyai banyak sebab-sebab yang menghalang kejayaan mereka. Tidaklah perlu kita tambah halangan terhadap kejayaan mereka dengan kepercayaan kepada yang karut-karut.

p.s : I love your thinking styles Tun! <3

hearts;
dyaJ

Epic moment #2

2011-12-05T22:16:00.001+08:00

And so I debated for three slots.

My parents watched me in Utusan live streaming since they couldn't come to Shah Alam.

I was happy though shizz things happened.

The experiences were priceless.

Thanks everyone,

For those tears and smiles.

love&hearts

dyaJ

Epic moment

2011-11-29T09:06:00.000+08:00

Hello mello schmello.

Dalam kesibukan hidup sebagai seorang pelajar yang perasan berdedikasi dan komited dalam menjalankan tugas seharian dan mengendalikan program program ilmuan, maka, segala penat lelah keringat hilang bila kita berjaya masuk Buletin Utama dan Utusan Malaysia. Hahahahahaha.

Tepuk tangan sikit. :D

love♥

dyaJ

Indie soul.

2011-11-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

Have fun with the new friend of yours.

No, I won't be joining. Am not suit enough.

Goodnight.

love,
dyaJ

Could you see those eyebags?

2011-11-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

Membesar dengan sihat di bawah mata.

Tepuk tangan sikit. Yeay.

love♥

dyaJ

2011-11-17T08:08:00.001+08:00

Spent the whole day with classes and these whole tiresome time consuming waiting time photo-shoot for debat211jam before we,

flew off to the NSTP Well Lit session yesterday on Kazuo Ishiguro's Never Let Me Go, a depressing good sci-fi novel. There was a very nice sculptures and arts exhibition by a local artist I forgot his name who lived in Langkawi at the gallery. I filled the whole page of his guest book saying how grateful I am to be a Malaysian to have such artist like him.

Hahaha. Very propa one.

p.s : I registered for poem slam and talentime for the Alfresco. I am the faculty's rep for Squasy for SAF. very sporty one huh? LOL!

Love ♥

dyaJ

Bukulicious.

2011-11-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

This is so damn random.
I finished reading Queen of Babbles Get's Hitched. I love it to bits.

There is a shelf of books to be read. I hope I could finish them all before the year ends.

How AidilAdha? Moomoos everywhere I think. :) Haha bukan selalu makan daging. So, inilah masanya nak hentam kan. lol. Kerja? Ada je kerja, banyak pulak tu tapi sama ada buat buat terlupa seketika atau sengaja buta. Yeah, right. Bosanlah, bila cakap pasal assignments je mesti mengantuk.

See you when I see you. Bye.

love♥
dyaJ

Gateaux is cake in French.

2011-11-02T00:24:00.001+08:00

I found out both me and my room mate are in a condition at which we were like hanging on the clouds (no, it's not a good thing) and doomed to boredom and stress, yes life is a bit stressful when you have to send a whole-lot of the Creative Writing portfolio to Madam so that you can get back the mock-quiz paper this Thursday when you realized you actually have many other things to do, like writing journals for Research Methodology. Brruu. Or thinking about Sociolinguistics comparing journal or thinking you have a society to look for or a record-breaking event to attend to or paling teruk is HAVING A GUITAR WITHOUT ANY STRINGS. Boom, what's a guitar without it's strings gila? Haa. This semester alone, we did not play or sing, or make covers at all. Oh yes I did sang Yuna's song during the opening of the Entrepreneur Day last week but it was only a song where I had to go out from French class macam gila sebab takut Monsieur got mad and it was too short. Pfft. Plus, it was Fik who played his electric guitar so the feelings were different. Herm. And masa Tiko's birthday, tapi it wasn't with Aisyah. It wasn't in our very own room. It wasn't the very usual thing. So, here we are, staring at the guitar not doing anything about it since it is already near midnight, there's no music stores that are still open for business. We've been thinking maybe we could mock-play the thing but that is ridiculous and pathetic. Aisyah made few strings sounds, you know the greng greng sounds but it is not helping at all. We laughed at ourselves pathetically. We are two sad people stuck in the midst of boredom and of course with the tickling sounds of the raindrops outside. The sounds of the raindrops are our lullaby tonight.So I told Aisyah maybe we could hide it somewhere first before it wounds our heart more. Maybe we should put it somewhere in Aisyah's or my closet until we stumble upon the very free time to go and get the strings back on it. And we get it fully string-ed, I will make sure the first song I want to play is I Do by Colbie Callait. Heh.

Anyway,tonight is a cold night, colder than the other nights. As cold as my heart.Eh.

love♥

dyaJ

Fromage.

2011-10-29T12:04:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

This is a mere update.

1. We're gonna have 3 tests this Monday. Ya, tiga tiga tiga, gila! Curriculum and Instruction in the morning; (whatever slides we have to read argh stress), Asmahan's Research Meth (whatever population and sampling to be read) in the noon and Sociolinguistics (SEVEN! TUJUH! woi chapters nak baca) at night. Today is Saturday and yesterday we had a test jugak. Tahniah tahniah kawan kawan! pfft. Won't start talking about assignments.

2. Other than all that, I do take part in the record breaking 211jam debat tanpa henti tu, as one of the committees. So....

Yes, I am busy. Busier if i have to list down things I suppose to do until December. I think, everyone is busy. Everyone has their own problems and things to do. Problems here and there, shizz here and there.
Sometimes I wonder what kind of life I lead nowadays. Macam pathetic sajoh.

Tapi apa apa lah, saya nak tengok Barbie as Princess and the Pauper,
tengahari nak tengok Hindi, petang nak exercise. Hahaha

Lupakan saja tests yang tiga itu. Pfft. (NOT!)

love♥
dyaJ

sepetang

2011-10-20T16:01:00.001+08:00

We went to NSTP for our Contemporary Literature yesterday.

They discussed about the author whom I never read : Haruki Murakami.

I have no interest in reading any of his books pun. Lol

Anyways, I can't wait for A Thousand of Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini discussion next month.

I hope I've finished reading the novel when they discuss it later. hihi.

Can't wait for the food, sebenarnya. LOL

love ♥

dyaJ

Nowa.

2011-10-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

Nowa, Nowa, Nowa. Pinano pinano pinano. Pentipu, pentipu, pentipu. Waub. Shawip. Roger Foss, I love you. Eh.

Yes, we went to watch The Secret Life of Nowa today.

We were blessed, we got to sit at the Stalls, the nearest floor to the stage.

Alhamdulillah. Yeay.

love ♥

dyaJ

Enigme

2011-10-15T09:08:00.000+08:00

We are going to watch The Secret Life of Nora today. But I don't feel that happy. I don't know why. I feel like going home but I just can't. I have Asmahan's class from 1030 to 1230 and the time I spend at home will be too short if I go home after that. I have piles of assignments to do but I can't whine. It's unethical to whine about things under your responsibility. brrrr brr brrr.

It's already 0904. Oh no, 0907.

I'm stucked. Bye

love ♥

dyaJ

Happy?- ness

2011-10-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

Dimensi dan peralihan masa.

Transferens dalaman luar sedar.

Luar kesedaran.

p.s : Orang tua kata, banyaklah ketawa, kejap lagi berduka.

Betul lah tu.

love♥

dyaJ

Juggle.

2011-09-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

As what we've been told in the previous class, we should not let ourselves walking in daze. I hope you get what I meant. We have to know how to carry ourselves in whatever situation and location and things after that wouldn't create any problem, at least I think so. Wait, I keep hearing screaming from the faculty tonight. It's nearly midnight now. Too bad, Mon heard the same thing too. So it's reality not illusion, imagination or allusion. Heh. Okay, continue. Anyways, I believe courtesy plays a great role in life, since we were entangled in this culture and traditional life, though some of us believe we should be more relaxed and free, some things have to be considered too. Like when you want to use people stuff, you asked the permission from the owner, right? I suppose so. Oh I heard another screaming, again. I hope I'll sleep soundly as a polar bear tonight. I realized I can't sleep yet. Assignments are piling, you see. Sigh. Oh back to the topic, It's hard for me to explain. Or maybe I am too lazy to explain. Or maybe I'm not in the mood of explaining things I couldn't find the solution, no it's not as easy as ABC, snap your finger zap and the thing disappears. This is more than that. This is about feelings and how people tell they stories to others.

I have things to cater tonight. Not too many but quite a few. But I'm already sleepy. Pfft.

Anyways, I've found, no Fana put a link on Twitter and I watched the video. It's about a Korean man who confessed her love to a Malay girl. Yes, the girl named Sophia is good in Korean too. I found it so sweet I nearly cry haha takdelah. But the thing, the confession, was so sweet and the girl gave the relationship a chance. I don't know what happened to them now but I found it sweet. I believe, they would have cute babies if they were to get married. And their babies can speak in Malay, English and Korean and and to have that is fabulous and awesome. Sigh, I wish!

I hope I don't have to hear the screaming, again. It's kinda scared me. I am not a brave person, I have to confess. Damn. Let's just pray those came from naughty, annoying spoiled brats from Intec. Maybe they are having some camping or something at the field they used to play Frisbee in the evenings.

This is hard.

love ♥
dyaJ

I miss her.

2011-09-27T09:31:00.000+08:00

My little sister.

No, yang baju merah tu my cousin. LOL

love♥

dyaJ

Friday, 24th September

2011-09-24T02:53:00.000+08:00

I believe everyone has a reason in doing something but I find it awfully annoying when I sent you a message of something important and I waited for your reply and you did send me nothing. So thinking that you might have less credits in you phone account whatever so I called you. And you did not answer. Okay, try again and you pick up and said few word I can't even decipher. More like laughing or maybe sneezing? Ah i don't know.Few more attempts and you rejected and ignored it. Thinking that maybe you've asleep, okaylah but to see you online in Facebook a few minutes after those calls is so not cool. Come on lah. Be professional please.

If you think you are so good in a particular thing, don't you ever belittle people and underestimate them. You think you know when you might don't even have the idea of other people's ability and knowledge. Some people prefer to be humble, you see. We learnt about multiple intelligences, bro.

Assignments are piling up. Researches to be done. Journals to be written and more readings. This is tiring. Amboi mengeluh but this is confusing, tiring, boring eh tetiba. Haha. This is just the second week kot. Pfft kroo kroo kroo.

One Subway Sandwich waiting on the table. But I'm full.

I browse through my Indo trip's picture to find this image of Melur beach. Nice one, right. Oh yes, manusia tu I. Hahaha tetiba nampak macam penguin tu dah kenapa -___-" pfft. Takpelah cuma nak kata God's creations are beautiful, why are we still not being grateful?

Dang, mengantuk. Goodnight loves.

Love♥

dyaJ

The Backpackers take two.

2011-09-20T09:26:00.000+08:00

Hi, today is Tuesday.

We arrived back in Shah Alam at 2a.m and i decided not to sleep for the rest of the day since it was Monday. Tak payah tidur pergi je kelas kan, ha. Jangan buat okay sebab bila dalam kelas mengantuk dia tahap ke langit tertinggi. Apa je tak buat bila tak tidur tu? What i did was washing up some clothes sikit, online banyak. Wah, rajin gila. Entah bila setahun sekali je nak rajin macam tu lol. Haha. *sarcasm to self

Cakap banyak tak guna saudara, highlights of the trip are :

1. Food food food

The food were awesome. Sama macam tempat kita cumanya their food lebih penuh dengan perasa, rempah, pedas. Awesomeness we had nasi timbel, bakso gunung, nasi kuning, gonggong (terbaik!), es salju and apa entah lagi. Anyways I was holding udang goreng tu, 5 prawns secucuk which cost me Rp2000. Murah kan, cuma sekitar 70sen je. :)

2. Mall mall mall, kedai kedai kedai.

Ada Mega mall, BCS mall, ada lagi mall yang lain tapi lupa and this is one of their mall, the Nagoya Hill. Jangan silap, they had Nagoya town here too, bukan di Jepun je. Fana and I stayed in Nagoya thus we were brought here. It was nice. Shopping oi, siapa je yang tak suka, kan?

Street mall? Haha kedai kedai kedai yang colourful. :) Waktu ni awal pagi so haruslah kedai tak buka, kita je yang terlebih semangat nak berjalan. Kedai pulsa je bukak di awal pagi mcm ni, lol.

3. Coasta Rina Coasta Rina

A park with the biggest Coasta Rina sign in Indonesia. Kiranya masuk Book of Record Indonesia. Memang besar pun. Tak tercapai kamera ku nak menangkap gambarnya. Mana tak, guna pun kamera handphone. Pfft hahaha

4. Pantai pantai beach

Pantai Melur was an awesome place to go. Walaupun lumayan juga jauhnya dari kota sebab kena lalu enam jambatan, still terbaik lah bro. Air jernih, pasir halus pemandangan cantik walaupun it was scorching hot. Pergh panas dol. Ke memang kalau kita kat tepi pantai panas dia luar biasa? Haha Walaupun tak mandi, kita main juga lah air tu walaupun kalau tenung lama lama rasa macam nak minum jee. lol

Tapi, diorang ni, sampai je pantai terus boom terjun main air, tak lama lepas tu makan, turun balik, main bola. Haha.

5. The best part mestilah FRIENDS FRIENDS FRIENDS.

Ya, to meet your friends is the best part. Lantaklah walau dimana saja. Biar di Algeria sekalipun kalau ada teman mesti seronok kan? Haha. Dah macam reunion aku rasa. Seronoklah. Menggembirakan. :') Wah terharu tetiba.

The journey was awesome. The experience was superb. Alhamdulillah our backpacking (lah sangat) journey was fine, Tak ada masalah. Langsung takde malah dibantu terus.Thanks to our parents (mine and Fana's) for giving us the permission though there were some complications wayy before the journey. Thanks to friends in Indonesia, Dafi, Ded, Yadi, Yanti, Sally dan ramaaiiii lagi for being helpful enough to provide things needed chewah! haha.

I'm so grateful. :')
Thanks everyone.

love♥
dyaJ

The Backpackers.

2011-09-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hello dan selamat sore.

By the time you're reading this, i'm already in Indonesia. Yeay. I can't believe i made it but today was such a fun day. Dafi fetched us before he brought us to the Hotel. Prima Asia. :D Oh then he brought us to his campus where today is the second day of orientation for the new students. So sempat juga cuci mata ya. Lol. There, we met Pak Faqiih, a lecturer-friend, and Pak Agus, whom formerly studied in UiTM for his Master in hotel management. Quite a nice talk we had. We talked mostly about Shah Alam lol and Fana and I were invited to have an experience watching the orientation shizz. It was fun. We were served some kuih muih, makanan siapa tak suka kan? Haha. And sempat juga lah mencuci mata tu sikit sikit. :P

Tadi Dedi dan Dany dah bawak kita pergi dinner seafood. Kita makan Gonggong., a type of siput i can't describe. I'll put some pictures nanti bila dah balik. So dah mengantuk walaupun baru je pukul 1051 waktu Indonesia, satu jam lebih lambat dari tempat kita. Mungkin penat masa journey lah kot. Chewah.

Jaga diri people. Oh ya, kalau ada masa telefonlah i, 087894274643. Mana tau nak kirim gonggong ke apa. Haha.

love♥
dyaJ

Convoluted

2011-09-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

This thing had just crossed my mind.

I just realized that life is all about choices. No I realized about this dah lama cuma baru sekarang nak rasa. Maybe i'm getting mature as time passed by? Chewah. Naah. Back to the topic, you are what you choose; what to eat, where to go, what to do etc.

So when I decided to stop painting few years back because I think painting is a non-benefit activity for someone common like me, like i'm not an artist pun so why should I paint kan, and kalau paint pun bukannya cantik,and and and because I have those convoluted way of thinking, I lost another medium of self expression other than music. I couldn't explain things well and if I could pun it will be long-winded and complicated. My paintings, those were some ordinary scenes or abstract shizz yang I sorang je fikir cantik. I miss them. Mana tah, I only have a few left with me.Haha that was so 7 years ago. Dah 7 years since my last artwork. And I regret that I stop doing it.

See, this is all about choices in life. You choose what you do in your life; what you eat, where you'd go, how you spend your money and such. The scary part was when you realized you'd chose wrongly and it affects you after that. And the worst part will be disappointment. Did you get what I mean?

I don't like to think of the past.

And i don't like peeking on the future too.

I need an escapism. Indonesia, here I come.

love♥

dyaJ

Shorties.

2011-09-12T18:30:00.008+08:00

Hello loves, today is the beginning of the my 5th Semester. I have 3 semesters more. Damn time flies fast. I should realized about this earlier. Cuti empat bulan sangat lama, tak sangka sampai juga ke penghujungnya. I missed my friends so today i met them. Haha, nice one.

Mari cuba update blog cara Tun Mahathir.

What did i do today :

1. Arrived home at 1 something, kemas stuff and sleep at 230. Woke up at 440 to set up the curtains and stuff and had a bath, do things before tertidur and woke up back at 803 and class starts at 830. No, I'm not late. I did arrive the class on time. hew hew hew. Class ended at 9 something. Biasalah tu, first day kan. Dr Shariff was garang at first. lol

2. Breakfast at 10, another class at 1030. Blablabla.

3. Met Mdm Rosalind for some Ethos! stuff. Blablabla.

4. Lepaking in Square. Laughed a lot. Like seriously banyak ketawa sampai sakit perut. Haha

5. Contemporary Lite class at 2. Mdm Rosalind is the lecturer, yeay.

6. Jamuan mini hari raya ED220 U5B. Thanks for those who brought their cakes and stuff. Kek Sarawak dan cookies were delicious. Nanti sila buat lagi.

Today was a tiring day. I missed seeing Acad, Moja, Chip, Azri and the gang. We feel young compared to the asasians kids. Chewah. Part One were okay, bolehlah. Johan owes me an iced milo. I am super tired. Anyway this is a scheduled post. When you're reading this, i might have my sweet time sleeping. Sorry and cheerio.

Love ♥
dyaJ

Favourite OST from my favourite movie.

2011-09-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

I love watching movies that allow the audience to think about life. Yes again, Yasmin Ahmad's movies are the best though sometimes i have to watch them twice before i could really understand it well; tak kisah lah Sepet ke, Gubra ke, Mukhsin, Muallaf or even Talentime. Semua nya best. And same goes to a hindi movie Guzaarich; it's about Euthanasia. Hey, kita pernah present about this issue few semesters ago so dia macam very interesting untuk ditonton. Chewah. So, good movies mestilah ada OST yang sedap jugak ye tak? So today, untuk ke entah sekian berapa kali, I watched Talentime again. My favourite movie with good music and simple storyline yet touched my heart I just have to shed some tears, again or could I say, every single time i watch it. Sedihlah this story. And my favourite song of all mestilah Kasih Tak Kembali by Atilia. Siapa yang tak pernah dengar, cuba try dengar sekali. Sedap tau, serious ni. Maybe it is not your taste, tapi i just love it. :D There's no official music video. Tapi lyrics dia awesome.Nak tulis lyrics tapi since dia mcm dah tuliskan di video tu, so tak perlulah kot. Haha. Anyways, standing ovation untuk penulis lirik. :) I hope i can play this song, soon.

Kasih Tak Kembali - Atilia.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Duit raya tahun ini sikit tahu?

2011-09-03T22:35:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan hai. Selamat hari raya ke 5.

Eid's teaser tak cukup empat. Angan angan tinggi sekali, kononnya nak buat epic entry sebelum raya. Pergilah mabuk. Pfft.

Jadi, raya tahun ini biasa je, orang lain nak rasa meriah suka hati deorang, eh, haha. Sebab duit raya amat sikit. Jadi tak seronok walaupun makanan banyak.Ha saja kan nak warnakan duit raya warna merah biar satu dunia tahu duit raya tu penting kepada manusia yang bergelar student. So siaran tv pun bestlah jugak walaupun cerita Cinta Kolesterol tu asyik tayang je setiap kali ~~duit~~ hari raya dari dulu lagi. Nampak sangat nak menasihatkan orang ramai supaya tidak makan berlebihan di hari raya kalau tak nanti jadi gemuk macam Erra Fazira lepas tu lelaki yang kononnya handsome macam Yusry akan tak suka dia lepas tu dia akan bersenam sampai kurus lepas tu dump Yusry, hekeleh nampak sangat cerita tu mementingkan paras rupa bukan cinta dari hati yang tulus. Tapi mesti pengajaran tu tak sampai sebab orang pun malas nak tengok cerita yang asyik diulang ulang setiap kali raya. Pasanglah cerita yang adventure sikit, macam The Clash of the Titans ke, tak pun cerita Nang Nak. Ni tak, sikit sikit cerita Madu Empat, Mami Jarum lah apabenda lah. Nasib baik kadang kadang ada Tomok dengan Misha Omar nyanyi. So macam bolehhlahh -_-" Nasib baik esok malam ada The Voice so boleh lah tengok Adam Levine, eh tetiba.

So oleh sebab ~~duit~~raya tak berapa nak fefeeling sangat so gambar ~~duit~~raya pun tak banyak yang ambil. Serious entah berapa ketul je yang ada. Tu pun sekerat sekerat. Haha. Nampak sangat camerawoman mogok duit raya sikit. LOL! Pictures below diambil semasa raya pertama. Enjoice lah gambar kita tiga beradik tanpa muka tu. Haha

Haa memang macam tu lah kan, turun lah walau 1000kg pun muka tu takda makna nak kurus.
Dahla ada jerawat seketul kat dagu. Pffft. Whatever. ~~duitraya~~

Anyways hari ini sorang kawan sekolah i kahwin.Meriah lah bhai kahwin hari raya. Haha. Dapat suami raya di hari raya. Mesti dia dapat duit raya jugak. Damn, jelesnya. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAtakdelah.

love duitraya ♥
dyaJ

Eid : teaser 03

2011-08-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

This time around mood lebih menjurus ke arah pembukaan sem berbanding raya. Bukan tak menghargai ketibaan Aidilfitri tapi..tapi erm mungkin sebab kematangan telah tiba (pfft kematangan) jadi menjadikan perasaan teruja itu hambar sedikit, tidak hebat seperti biasa. Haha. Bak kata Eija di Facebook, kawan kawan sekolah ramai je yang tahun ni beraya dengan suami terchinta dan anak anak mereka (kalau ada), kita chillax esok balik kampung bag pun tak kemas lagi; ye lah, bab bab nak tidur rumah orang ni memang masalah sikit. Selalunya akan lepak lepak lepak guling guling baring baring baring pusing pusing pusing baru kemas. Ni bukan malas, ni habit. Sebab kita akan delay benda yang kita tak berapa nak gemar. Bukan tak gemar rumah orang, tapi tak gemar aktiviti tidur tu. Bila dah tak tidur wa okay je bro! chewah

Kamu pun mesti ada benda yang tak gemar jugak kan? *angkatkening

Ahh apa apa je lah. Dahaga, nak minum air bandung tadi.

Haha.

Love♥

dyaJ

Eid : teaser 02

2011-08-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

Anyways, nampak tak? itu biskut raya jangan kata tak tau; Peanut Butter cookies yang sungguh senang untuk dibuat tapi malas nak buat di hari selain dari hari raya sebab malas dan di Shah Alam banyak pulak la kan oven dan tray dan weight dan.. ah takpayah nak explain sangat. Malas je nak buat sebenarnya kalau hari biasa. Haha. Malas bro. Lazy bum bangbang.

Raya bila? Lagi 3 hari? 4 hari? Wah, ignorantnya diriku. Dah kat sini tiada pun bunyi meriam buluh ke, meriam batang pinang ke waima mercun pop pop juga tiada kedengaran T_T Semua orang dah balik kampung agaknya. Kita tak main pun mercun this year. Dah besar mann, nampak benar motif membakar duit tu terbayang di lejar minda terbayang di depan mata. Dulu entah kenapa tak pernah rasa duit terbakar kalau main mercun ke bom ke.Wahh kemain korek tabung beli mercun dekat bazaar. Lepas tu malam malam keluar bawak pelita main. Kan? Favourite bunga api mesti lah bunga api packaging gambar kucing sebab kalau bakar kena tangan pun takde sakit bro! Percikan api dia pun ala ala bintang bintang macam tu. Lepas tu perasan jadi Sailor Venus, Sailor Mercury. Lol

Hahaha

Tapi tu dulu lah kan, sekarang kalau boleh nak save je duit untuk guna buka sem nanti, ye tak?

love♥

dyaJ

Eid : teaser 01

2011-08-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

Jangan tanyalah kenapa title teaser; sebab kononnya nanti kalau rajin akan ada teaser 02, 03, 04. Kalau rajin, lah. Kalau tak akan berkubur lah dengan hanya 1 teaser, okay tak perlu lah nak explain sangat haha.

So biasalah kalau hari raya mestilah akan ada ucapan oversea, undersea or anything similar. Lagu raya pun dah berlambak kedengaran dan posmen pun akan busy membuat kerja menghantar kad raya. walaupun kita di dalam kelompok generasi Y, nasib baik masih ada yang raaaajjjiiinnnn dan baaaiiikkkk hhaaattiiii untuk hantar kad raya, for me and others. Usaha murni, lepas ni hantar lah lagi untuk birthday pulak, wah demand.

Nampak tak kad-kad tu? Thanks a lot for those who sent me those beautiful, cute cards. Thanks sebab buat my sister jealous haha. Thanks okay korang, sebab gigih spend time untuk pilih kad, spend money untuk beli setem and Naim, 'Datin' is so not me. Hamboi sesuka hati letak gelaran Datin kang kena saman siapa nak bayar? Ceciter. Hahahahahah XD Holidays are just too long, InsyaAllah we are going to see each other soon chewah. I miss you peeps, i know you miss me too, siapa je tak rindu jangan harap nak melepak sama sama di pecel lele Padang Jawa nanti, makan bebola penyet heh, macam takde tempat lain lol.

Please, sesiapa yang memang tinggal di Shah Alam especially, Selangor, Perak tolong buat open house. InsyaAllah akan ku datang kalau dijemput lah haha. *ehem. Teringat pula Mdm Syahreena ada buat invitation last sem.

Ada ke yang nak pergi?

Hahaha.

p.s : Mdm Syahreena is our beloved lecturer, thankyou.

love♥
dyaJ

I think hard.

2011-08-21T01:14:00.003+08:00

I think :

Une, changing your name to something that you think is cool macam Yaa Cutey, Hunny Munchkins and letak gambar kereta, lorry, motorsikal and stuff are so annoying. That is so not cool and kinda pissing me off. Nama you pelik and gambar you pun sama. And i have to click at your other pictures to know, "Ohh rupanya you kawan sekolah i. Motif" I just don't understand. Kamuorang dah besar kot, why so annoying?

Deux, kids especially little girls should not be thought to wear make-ups. They are just too small to have those chemicals shizz on their faces y'know. They are innocent, naive and cute little girls with cute gowns and ponytails with small teddy although sometimes they are little monsters in disguise. So let them be one lah kakak! Bukan mata berwarna-warni, haishh -_-"

Trois, jalan raya di Malaysia kena ada lampu jalanlah. Tak semua, tapi at least dekat tempat yang gelap. Drivers nowadays dah lah suka pasang lampu tinggi tu lepas tu bawak laju lepastu line atas jalan tu pun dah faded, so risiko untuk terlibat dalam kemalangan tu tinggi sikit berbanding biasa. So macam kurang selamat for everyone.

Quatre, people get bored because they are lonely. Like me, now. Swallowed in self pity, haha tetiba.

Btw, is it too early to wish "Selamat hari Raya, nak duit raya" to people?
And a 21 year-old youth still dapat duit raya kan?#eh.

love ♥

dyaJ

When you have to put other masks and be someone else; life is all about drama.

2011-08-19T12:36:00.001+08:00

The Infamous Story of Indera Kayangan was the title.

love ♥

dyaJ

Jersey masa asasi, eh it rhymes tapi siapa peduli?

2011-08-19T02:20:00.001+08:00

Benda yang paling tak best dalam dunia adalah bila barang kita hilang. And,

I LOST THIS JERSEY

*rage

T_T

So that's it.

2011-08-17T14:39:00.001+08:00

Imaginations are just another pieces of thoughts. So what we imagine aren't usually become a reality. What you plan is not necessarily you accomplish. I think deeply, thinking about what other people feel if i were in their shoes. I experienced some shits too years ago. So, I just don't feel good to drag someone's someone to enjoy things that i enjoice(?) so much because deep inside i would feel guilty. Because i won't feel good to know my boyfriend (no, i don't have any actually) is spending his time doing something with someone i don't know. Yes i have problems, with those kind of things. I'm a freak. Say things, i don't mind.

No worries, we will be having fun and good times, with some alterations to my plan. Itu pun kalau you masih okay with everything. I don't know. I just don't know.

I need some air. I need light coke. I am sorry.

love♥

dyaJ

3.45 a.m

2011-08-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

" And we will be holding hands when we walk, climbing up the stairs or even crossing down the roads like what we used to do last times, when we were kiddies. Ingat tak masa kita nak replace pencil Nad yang you patahkan......"

Thank you for remembering the past, thank you for giving a call, at least i need it yesterday.

Everyone knows you're just so sweet.

love ♥

dyaJ

Berbeza sedikit.

2011-08-16T02:37:00.000+08:00

I need to read good books. I've run out of good books. So i decided to watch hindi movies online. So when i waited PATIENTLY for it to buffer, the thing has no subtitles. Like i know hindi for bdehcu's sake, kan? So that's when Shufitri suggested maybe i should download e-books; which is indeed an excellent idea. Why i never thought about this? So i downloaded few books including The BoneSetter's daughter by Amy Tan and Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot. Mencari inspirasi, katanya.

(Please friends you know who Amy Tan is kan? Hint: Jing Mei, remember?Haha.)

It was fun to know that there are a few books in you laptop and phone, where you will be saving a lot of money instead of buying the real copy but it was quite frustrating to not holding the real book. Like you know, silau lah tengok screen lama lama. So it was kinda lame and frustrating to know you can actually finish half a book in a night but since you're reading from your computer and phone, you can only achieve page 46 out of 242 pages in a night. Haha. Padahnya benda secara percuma -_-". The moral, belilah jangan download.

Okay, tukar tajuk.

So sekarang we all know that LinDan won against Lee Chong Wei in last-two-days-international-event. Tak apalah, he still did his very best kot. Kalau berdebar hati kita menengoknya, berdebar lagi lah dia yang memukul bola. So aku tak faham kenapa ada lagi yang nak mengata umpat kat Chong Wei. Bukan kat dia je, dekat mana mana team sukan lah yang kalah. Macam team bola. Bila kalah semua nak mengumpat baik punya macam lah diorang tak main betul betul. Pastu dah la perkara ni berlaku dekat arena sukan je. Dekat dunia hiburan ke apa tak pernah dengarlah pulak. Mungkin diorang patut ambil tempat Chong Wei dan lawan dengan LinDan. Atau masuk team Harimau Malaya dan lawan team Chelsea. Hah!

So, macam kelakar sebab yang mengumpat ni kadang kadang rules and regulations badminton pun dia tak tau. or ni first time dia tengok Chong Wei main. So ya, macam kelakar di situ.

love♥

dyaJ

Ralat.

2011-08-10T06:38:00.000+08:00

So bear in mind,

People won't change unless they want to.

Jadi tak ada gunanya kalau semua orang bercakap. Biar seribu orang pun yang bagitahu perkara yang sama, kalau dia tak nak terima, tetap tak ada yang berubah. Biar seribu cara diguna, masih tak ada yang berbeza. Ralat kau tau bila kita dah mencuba tapi tak berhasil. Bosan lah macam ni.

love♥

dyaJ

Once upon a hair

2011-08-07T23:06:00.001+08:00

This is few months ago, before she made the decision.

Then she decided to keep it short so she made it this way :

Okay lah kan, not bad, and not good either. So so. But when semester break starts, entah kenapa jadi semacam.

Ahh rambut, jangan nak jadi chibi maruko sangat lahhhhhhhhh!

p.s : Kasihan dirinya. Huhu T_T

love♥

dyaJ

Penguin

2011-08-06T07:48:00.001+08:00

So one day Hani shared a video on Facebook of Arms by the same singer, i started to listen to Christina's songs that i downloaded few weeks ago. Lovely and cute. I'm addicted to 'em.

Can you find the time
to let your lover love you
He only wants to show you,
the things he wants to learn too
The hardest parts you'll get through
And in the end you'll have your best friend

Love like this may come once
Baby it's fate like a soul mate
He's your penguin
Baby it's fate
Baby it's fate not luck.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Ketakutan

2011-08-05T06:36:00.000+08:00

Dan bila setiap kali Ramadhan, aku lah yang paling berani

Tak takut gelap, tak takut duniawi

Sebab semua imaginasi gelap aku hilang

Katanya dirantai sepanjang bulan,

Tapi semalam aku tonton berita

Bunuh cekik kerat semua ada

Nampaknya dunia tak aman

Sekurang kurangnya makhluk halus tidak mencederakan kita

Aku takut dengan manusia.

Okay lampu berkelip kelip *nervous*

love♥

dyaJ

Give them some.

2011-07-30T03:06:00.000+08:00

I walked down the memory lane of mine watching a kid and someone older than her walk hand in hand. I guess that might be her brother, when suddenly another man came and push them aside to allow him and his girlfriend walk through the same path.

Kids are also humans, it is just that they are smaller and younger. Thus, they deserved some respects too. Why don't you give them some?

Love ♥
dyaJ

Awesomeness just can't be that long; farewell will always come.

2011-07-27T20:14:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan Hi.

Yes, so as scheduled, Farhana came to my house before we went to the 6th UiTM International Sports Fiesta (UiSF) 2011 on the 19th till 25th. And yes, i became the Liason Officer for my last 2 years team, Universitas Batam. Great to take care of them again after two years. Jumpa jumpa je kat pelabuhan terus lambai lambai. awwh. Good to know they still remember me. ;) Ewah.

Ho, ini masa nak hantar diorang balik. Two days ago. Kinda sad but i didn't shed tears kot *angkatkening. Padahal balik Shah Alam nangis kan. Hahaha. Gotta go to Batam soon. I planned to go there since 2009. Nampak sangat this time around kena pergi. Cewah.

Perkenalkan, ini Head of Delegation Universitas Batam, Pak Lagat. A very kind and nice man i should say. Yang bald tu TNC kita. I pun baru kenal. Pfft. Ignorant gila aku ni.

Meet these two budak propa, haha, tak ada lah, these two young men,with nicknames Nan and Dim, the badminton players. Both are younger than me with nice skills in badminton game. Thank God they won the 3rd placing in Men's double, they can actually beat Uni Trisakti but i guess they are too tired from the City Tour the night before; and Adnan was the winner for the Single game. (game? ah whatevs)

The whole team. Futsal, and badminton. Hilarious and funny men. Oh, the futsal team won the 2nd prize. Hebat team aku ni *bangga. hehehe. Some of the futsal players call me Kak Ros because i called two of them Upin and Ipin. Haha. Cute enough these boys, i would not forget about them. ;)

Stulang Laut jetty. Where i watched them boarded on the ferry and departed to their hometown. Yes, this time i did shed few teardrops jugak lah, to see them waving their hand, byebye bagai. ;') I hate farewell.

The best thing about it is the relationship built. I just love the way it puts itself on the right place, on the right time. Good old friends, new friends. It was just awesome.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Separanoia

2011-07-15T04:07:00.001+08:00

I started to realize that i don't really fancy the idea of spending the night(s) at someone else's house. Unless i have something important to do or it is my friends' rent house we're talking about. With this additional extra 4 months at home, i am so in love with the house i can't imagine i have to leave my petite room and sleep at a place of unknown.

First, i don't like to pack my things up. I hate to pick up the toothbrush la, shampoo la, bath foam and blablabla clothes, tudung bcgydubj. Banyak ko tau. Lappy is a must. Phone, chargers, purse womenstuffblablabla. It is annoying because i have to think what things i should bring and it takes a lot of time and i don't like to feel stress to know i did left something at home because i gesa gesa kemas benda.

Second, I don't really like spending the night at people's place because i will feel awkward, not knowing what to do after i did something. Macam okay, dah makan, mandi pastu nak buat apa? Okay tolong menolong orang tua lepas tu? Lepas tu lepas tu? Bukak laptop main plant vs zombies dengan rasa bersalah. I hate this feelings.

Third, I feel insecure. Takut. Tidak selamat. For example, if my parents decided to spend the night at grandparents' house; usually ni time raya, i will be the most uncomfortable kid in the family. I can't sleep because i am afraid. This is basically due to the physical attributes that both houses had. Both grandparent's house are partially made up of wood. Setengah kayu setengah batu. So memang hampeh la aku nak tidoq dengan lenanya. Selalu tidur ayam dan dengar je keadaan sekeliling, seperti dengkuran saudara mara atau igauan dan tangisan anak kecil mereka. -_-

I know i have to fight these feelings away. I will, InsyaAllah

It's quite sometimes since i sleep at someone's house. But just now, when Abah told us that his uncle's son wedding is on Saturday and we have to sleep at Tok's house tomorrow's night,

I FEEL LIKE CRYING MY SOUL OUT. Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu T_T

love ♥

dyaJ

Hilang bisik, ini bersuara lantang.

2011-07-11T22:26:00.001+08:00

Maaf tiada gambar di entri kali ini.

Warning : This is a serious post.

I rarely talked about politics because there's nothing i could comment because i don't really want to involve in it. Maybe i should not reacted that way sebab i am one of the latest generation kan, why should i ignore all these? This is about my country, tanah tumpah darahku and ignorance is not the solution. So, when these people are busy talking about these BERSIH shizz and stuff, i started to read things and try to at least get some updates.

From my readings, i guess i started to know about this Dato' Ambiga. And dia adalah pendokong utama sistem pluralisme. What the flabber is pluralism, you may ask? Pluralism is when a form of society in which the member of minority groups maintain their independent cultural traditions.

Dia adalah bekas Presiden Majlis Peguam yang menerima memorandum Suruhanjaya Antara Agama (IFC) pd Ogos 2001. Not so long ago, huh. Okay, so sekarang mari kita lihat apa tuntutan IFC :

TUNTUTAN AMBIGA MELALUI IFC

1. Seseorang anak yang dilahirkan oleh ibu bapa Islam tidak seharusnya secara terus menjadi orang Islam.

2. Orang bukan Islam yang telah memeluk Islam hendaklah diberikan kebebasan untuk kembali ke agama asal mereka (murtad) dan tidak boleh... dikenakan tindakan undang-undang.

3. Sebarang kes pertukaran agama orang Islam kepada bukan Islam tidak sepatutnya dikendalikan oleh Mahkamah Syariah tetapi dikendalikan oleh Mahkamah Sivil.

4. Tidak perlu dicatatkan di dalam kad pengenalan seseorang Muslim bahawa ia beragama Islam.

5. Orang bukan Islam tidak perlu dikehendaki menganut Islam sekiranya ingin berkahwin dengan Orang Islam,Orang Islam hendaklah dibenarkan keluar daripada Islam (murtad) sekiranya ingin berkahwin dengan orang bukan Islam tanpa boleh dikenakan tindakan undang-undang.

6. Seseorang atau pasangan suami isteri yang menukar agamanya dengan memeluk Islam tidak patut diberikan hak penjagaan anak.

7. Orang yang bukan Islam yang mempunyai hubungan kekeluargaan dengan seorang yang memeluk Islam hendaklah diberikan hak menuntut harta pusakanya selepas kematiannya.

8. Kerajaan hendaklah menyediakan dana yang mencukupi untuk membina dan menyelenggara rumah-rumah ibadat orang bukan Islam sebagaimana kerajaan menyediakan dana yang serupa untuk masjid.

9. Orang bukan Islam hendaklah dibenarkan dan tidak boleh dihalang daripada menggunakan perkataan-perkataan suci Islam dalam percakapan dan sebagainya.

10. Bibel dalam Bahasa Malaysia dan Bahasa Indonesia sepatutnya dibenarkan untuk diedarkan kepada umum secara terbuka.

11. Pelajaran agama bukan Islam untuk penganut agama itu hendaklah diajar di semua sekolah.

12. Program-program berunsur Islam dalam bahasa ibunda sesuatu kaum hendaklah ditiadakan. Program dakwah agama lain selain Islam pula hendaklah dibenarkan untuk disiarkan dalam bahasa ibunda masing-masing.

13. Orang Islam yang membayar zakat tidak sepatutnya dikecualikan daripada membayar cukai pendapatan dan wang Hasil zakat sepatutnya digunakan juga untuk keperluan orang-orang bukan Islam.

14. Sepatutnya Islam tidak disebut sebagai pilihan pertama masyarakat Malaysia seperti dalam soal pakaian menutup aurat kepada pelajar sekolah.

Come on baby. Malaysia adalah negara yang majoritinya beragama Islam dan mengamalkan sistem perlembagaan. Agama Islam agama rasmi dan agama lain boleh diamalkan. We have churches, temples, everywhere in the country. Kita tak halang penduduk agama lain mengamalkan budaya dan amalan agama mereka, tetapi mengapa perlu ada yang menentang sebegini rupa terhadap agama kita? Ada orang kita pergi minta tuntutan supaya bayi yang dilahirkan oleh mereka yang bukan Islam disuruh menjadi Islam? Ada?

Okay, that is one thing. The next thing is dia pendokong utama demonstrasi Bersih. She created the Bersih thingy. What is this Bersih all about? Apa tuntutan dia?

Tuntutan BERSIH :

1. Membersihkan senarai pengundi
2. Memperbaharui sistem undi pos
3. Penggunaan dakwat kekal
4. Tempoh berkempen minimum 21 hari
5. Akses media yang adil dan telus
6. Kukuhkan institusi awam
7. Hentikan rasuah
8. Hentikan politik kotor

Sounds good. Cadangan yang menarik, mungkin selama ini apa yang dituntut sudah terlalu lama dipendam lantas menimbulkan rasa tidak puas hati di kalangan rakyat. Itu saya faham. Kerajaan mungkin ada salahnya, semua ada salahnya.Tetapi mengapa perlu demonstrasi? di jalanan? Mengapa Ambiga mengajak orang berkumpul dan berarak? Untuk apa?

Jangan tanya apa negara bagi untuk kamu, tanya apa kamu dah bagi kat negara. Wang pinjaman diambil tetapi disuruh berkhidmat di tanah air tak mahu. Pinjaman pelajaran tidak dibayar. Subsidi dan semuanya kemudahan diberi.Malaysia bukan Thailand, dan jangan pernah jadikan ia seperti Thailand. Mengapa tidak berfikir? Mengapa tidak mengkaji sebelum melakukan tindakan? kenal siapa ketua kamu, kenal siapa pengikut kamu. Yang salah jangan diikut, yang benar ditegakkan. Ada cara atas semua permasalahan. Kenapa ini pulak jadinya wey? And those new generations, wake up la, stop being ignorant. It's our time now, y'know.

Pak Jib pun, do lah something.

Bro, kalau lu tak suka, nanti bila undi lu pangkah la apa yang lu nak bro. Itu cara rakyat bersuara.

Demokrasi, bukan demonstrasi.

love ♥
dyaJ

Bythe.

2011-07-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah, actually i've written something but i guess i better post it tomorrow or the day(s) after tomorrow. Okay pemalas dol.

Nah seketol gambar saya dan kacamata. Yes, tahap silau agak hebat. Kalau duduk meja makan dan lepak nengok House sambil lampu depan bukak memang agak kurang jelas gambar abang Hugh and kalau drive saya tak berapa nak clear ah nak tengok apa tu, lampu countdown kat traffic light.

Maafkan perilaku tudung saya tu, dia rebellious sikit hari ini. Mungkin kerana sebelum pergi tadi tak sempat nak iron jadi dia rasa emosi lantas menggelembungkan diri.Heh. Oh, dua budak hingusan tetapi awal remaja di hadapan adalah dua pelajar kegemaran saya, wah statement. Oh yeah, hari ini hari last saya memegang jawatan sebagai guru so, dia macam ada farewell(?) shizz sikit tadi petang. Sempat say byebye dekat those Form Two kids tapi tadi petang dah datang meround di hadapan rumah. Amboi kemain, rindu cikgu lettew; perasan. Next two weeks will be back in Shah Alam, for UiSF 2011, amboi teruja rasa di hati mahu melompat ke langit tertinggi. ewah. I miss my friends and Gravy Baby. Gravy Baby akan dibuka di Laman Seri so ada peluang pergi selalu, tengok indie souls sing their souls out, hah. Mana tau dapat peluang join join keeeee. Teringat pulak ter-celebrate birthday kat situ. Semua manusia Gravy Baby and Asboon sang me Birthday song, ha rasa terharu sedih bagai dalam hati berbunga ceria lol. ;)

Keadaan sekitar agak kurang selamat. Political issues and stuff satu hal. Penjenayah merompak menyamun masuk rumah orang jugak satu hal. So, sila jaga diri dan keluarga anda tau. Bukan apa, at least kita ada usaha lah sikit mencegah, tak gitu?

Itu je lah kot. Be safe, be happy yaw.

Love♥

dyaJ

Sukan semalam.

2011-06-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Yes, they had their Sports Day yesterday.

Sweat and tears; great experience.

love♥

dyaJ

Palsu gigi makan anaconda. Tak dapat tengok tv

2011-06-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

Exactly 10 days i didn't write anything here. Life was quite hectic. I woke up at 6.15 everyday, drove to workplace an hour later. Returned home at 1.50 before went back for Sports Day marching practice at 4 which ended at 6. After that i picked my lil sis from her school, then only i went home; played football with some kids. (you can laugh here. haha) before spending the night time in the house. It is still hectic today but i gotta grab some time to write about things. I miss writings, I miss my friends (senyum sikitt bangg, pfft) I miss playing guitar. Gotta grab a new one real soon, hopefully, #retis. My feet sore, i ate twice a day je. One breakfast, another is lunch. Hahaha bunyi macam kesian gila padahal it's nothing bad pun. Biasabiasa je. Itu pun nak tulis jugak sebab sajasaja, suka hati wa la lu nak gaduh? Pfft. Fikiran terganggu hati dibelenggu; whatthe betul tak ada kaitan dengan ayat topik walaupun dia rhyme di situ. What you do, is what you treasure kan #katanye.

Thinking style. Some people, they focus more on the present. Not the past nor the future. They do what they see, they achieve what they want at that time. They don't reflect on past experience because they believe past is history; you dont have to think about it and future is unsure. So grab what's here in this time, this place. That is why people do bad things. They know things that they do did not benefit during the past and the future but they still do it to be happy; a temporary one. Drug addicts for examples. Wa hisap dadahs wa rasa gembira bro. Habis duit wa cilop la memana wa rasa boleh. Masa depan nanti fikeyy ar bro. Dulu wa takde life sekarang wa ada life, wa happy. #akulempangkaukang #hidupbebastanpadadahs. Ah nak jugak letak hashtags di situ.

On the other hand, some people drag their past to allow them to reflect on thing first before they make any decision on what to do at the moment. Future, they are unsure. This makes them afraid to make decision they haven't been up to. Afraid to make changes and believe being the same is suitable enough. Macam I ah. Dulu masa kecik i pernah makan peria ( ke petola?) dan rasa dia mak hang pahit so i dragged the memories to the present, sampai sekarang tak pernah lagi makan peria. simple but memorable. Ah ngada lagi nak letak rhymes.

Lagi, when you just think about the future and refused to consider things that happened last time and now. Macam, " Muahaha saya makan rasuah, saya berlaku tidak adil. Pedulik apa saya, Yang penting dapat duit saya boleh beli handphone baru. Beli rumah yang lebih besar, kereta mewah, kahwin lagi. dan lagi dan lagilagilagilagilakaugila." What the. Kena tangkap gelap terus masa depan. Motif. #takfikirkebang.

People have their own thinking skills (or styles?). We don't bother if you think more about the future than the pasts, or you think AJ should be our class rep again next semester or not but we are indifference. We are human beings. God's creation; the best ones amongst other creations. So why give up? Cheer up bro. Kata kental! (Kental is the new magic word) Eh, ini untuk diri sendiri ke apa? LOLness. #motiflakau. Bila nak kental kalau bukan sekarang? Kann. Ha apa lagi teguhkan diri kuatkan iman la bro. Ramadhan dah nak dekat, sementara ada masa eloklah melakukan perkara berfaedah. Ni tak, makan roti canai nak lima keping sekali, penat uncle mamak bulu banyak lenyek lenyek tepung tau. Berpeluh tapak tangan dia masuk tepung tau. #disgusting

Berkongsi keceriaan, my netbook is now in good condition. So sekali hadap taknak pulak 5 jam minimum, so akan bertambah rabun diriku tapi tak mengapa. Rabun jauh sikit, tapi silau banyak. Chill chill coolio. Alah bisa tegal biasa.

Kat TV sebenarnya ada movie anacondadada dan anaknya yang ganas suka makan manusia pastu manusia yang tanpa sebab pergi ke hutan dan berjumpa dengan ular tanpa sebarang sebab yang munasabah. Dia macam lebih okay berbanding cerita Planet of the Apes yang memang i can't accept at all; apa ke motif manusia jadi hamba abdi kepada monyets ,ciss mengarut. Tadi nak tengok, entah siapa bukak cerita kilauan emas gigi palsu menyanyi. Menyanyi untuk pakcik makcik yang sepatutnya lebih fokus ke arah ukhrawi tapi nak jugak duduk atas stage menyanyi. Bahaha. Tapi sekarang dah habis. Jadi mari tonton cerita ular besar ganas nama anacondadadada badan besar yang ganas.

Ciao.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Terampai

2011-06-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan hi.
Jyeahh am at school and waiting to go home. Lagi 41 minit. I got class at 8.50 sampai 10.10 and then relief class yg sama from 10.30 till 11.10 Students are from 2A1 jadi there's not much problems i encounter. Sesikit biasak lah bising berjalan tak bawak buku bagai.
Teachers bising pasal nak key-in markah kat web portal. Kena daftar bagai lol. Canggih manggih ni pun susah jugak. haih. Ape ke motif cikgu semua merungut kata susah. Gangguan laluan la apa la. Haa cikgu semua tak try lagi sistem Uitm ye tak? haha

Esok kena ajar chapter 5 : Water and Solution. Pfft. Gigih la haku belajar chapter nih. Pandai sains belaka kalau dulu belajar macam ni memang dapat nombor satu sentiasa masa sekolah. Ah nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Bubur lembik letak ayam atau ikan bilis pergh sedap.

Woi dah pukul 1.36, baik bersiap sedia nak balik rumah. Kena punch card uols sekarang. Semua nak sistematik #katenye. Mana tau tetiba kena hack pulak sistem, luka hati mereka. Sistemati terus jadi dirinya. Lantas keluar saya dengan inference baru, pembaharuan belum tentu menjadi penyelesaian.

Sekian saja buletin saya hari ini. Sayang isteri tinggal tinggalkan, sayang anak pukul pukulkan. lol

Jumpa lagi di lain entri. Ciao.

Love,
dyaJ

Syurga cinta? Lambat lagi.

2011-06-03T01:31:00.001+08:00

Gambar untuk menceriakan suasana.

Dah tak ke seram bila kau nak pergi toilet pukol tiga pagi lepas tu dengar suara ala ala manja macam bercakap cakap. Keseraman hilang bila masa kau letak telinga di pintu bilik adek kau pastu dengar dia tengah bergayutan dengan monyet yang bercinta dengannya (kata cinta monyet, okay macam kejam gila panggil dia monyet tapi peduli apa kehkeh). Whatthe tak whatthe? Whaattthheeeeee! (purapura ada suara) Dah la malam, kejadahnya lah nak bergayutan macam motif. Nak quote rasa malas la pulak, kalau quote ada yang gelak tak berhenti. haha.Tido la dol, malam untuk tidol, dia bergayul lak. pfft.

Itulah anak muda remaja sekarang, kerana cinta sanggup kau bersengkang mata. Macam macam sanggup, sampai tergadai diri pun sanggup. Haish. Salah salurkan cinta salah, bercinta dengan orang yang tak betul pun salah, berkorban lebih lebihan pun salah. Jadi camno?

Bercinta memang tak boleh dielakkan, cuma masanya mungkin sudah, belum atau sedang tiba. Bercinta berkaitan dua hati dan jiwa (hati,jiwa berbeza eh?) jadi gunakan akal untuk mengimbangi rasa. Kadang kadang dengan ada cinta, hilang pula semua keburukan dirinya. Orang yang sayang pada kita, takkan lah nak kita binasa, orang yang sayang pada kita selalu akan melindungi kita, orang yang sayang pada kita tak suruh kita melakukan kejahatan, kemungkaran. This is mutual, kalau kita sayang orang pun macam tu jugak lah kita buat. Sedangkan agama kita ada menyatakan, kita tidak wajib mengikut kata suami kita jika dia menyuruh kita melakukan kemungkaran. Nampak tak tu, suami yang suruh isteri dia melakukan kejahatan yang berlanggar dengan hukum syara' tidak wajib diikut kata-katanya walaupun syurga seorang isteri di bawah telapak kaki suami. Suami yang cinta pada isteri takkan suruh dia mendedahkan aurat di hadapan orang ramai, suami yang cinta pada isteri akan marah bila isteri melakukan kesalahan, tak gitu? Macam tu juga lah dengan isteri. Okay apabenda nya oi sampai ke bab suami isteri ni?

Orang yang sayangkan kita tak biar kita terjerumus ke lembah kehinaan. Dan kita juga tak mahu orang yang kita sayang jadi hina juga. Tetapi sesetengah orang tak nampak, bila bercinta jarang nampak salahnya. Sebab itu banyak benda kurang baik berlaku. Sebab bila bercinta segalanya indah belaka. Bulan bintang menjadi saksi, angin lembut menghembus pancaran cinta saksi blablabla tapi kalau tak berlandaskan agama, cinta itu tak ke mana. Mak selalu kata, bila bercinta semua best, tapi cuba dah kahwin, belum tentu. Jadi kata kan lah, orang yang kita cinta cintakan sangat itu mula menunjukkan belangnya, bagaimana? Ha, dari situ datangnya fungsi akal. Guna akal la pulak. Sebab pepatah pun ada kata, ikut rasa, binasa, ikut hati, mati. Jadi kita ikut akal. Memang susah lah bila dalam hati ada taman tapi cubalah.

Sebab cinta pada manusia bukan penentu kau masuk syurga, kannnn?

p.s : Ini semua jiran aku yang nak kahwin punya pasal.

love♥
dyaJ

Sekolah cuti, saya pun cuti.

2011-06-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

Kepada yang tak pasti, yaa itu bendera Perak. chewah.

Dan oleh kerana benda yang sepatutnya ditulis tak save padahal dah siap baikk punyaa pastu adik i pergi closed all the tabs terus hilang mendalah tu , maka dengan penuh rasa kecewa biarlah saya memperkenalkan sekolah tempat kerja saya. Pfft sumpah takde idea, tapi okaylah tu daripada tak tulis apa apa dan membiarkan blog macam kesiannya. Haha.

Nah lah tengok gambar. Sekolah yang baru dibuka tahun ini, yee tahun ini ada 3 jenis je students dia; form One, Two and Four. So macam proportion student dengan bilik yang ada macam sadis sikit. Kelas for form Three and Five sudah wujud tapi takde pelajar dek kerana kekangan bilangan pelajar yang ada. So boleh tahan lengangs. School starts at 7.20 pagi ye jenuh mak nak bangun pukul 546-600 setiap hari padahal sebelum tu bangun taknak pula pukul 9 dan selebihnya haha and ends at 1.50 tengahari/petang (?) Kesimpulannya hari hari pertama pengajaran nya penat ye. Hari pertama tu amboi students dia kemain lagi mata duk renung renung saja la tu nak test keyakinan diri cikgu. Lol. Pastu masuk kelas pertama ambil kau kena ajar PJK pulak. Pelajar wanita sahaja sebab pelajar lelaki tu dia cikgu lain yang ajar. Cikgu handsome. Haha. Jadi pengajaran pertama saya pada waktu PJK adalah bermain bola beracunnn hahahahahaha sungguh lame-O main bola beracun. Dah nak buat macamana, nak pergi padang pun sesat. Hahahahahaha. Tapi okaylah kot, bola beracun. Lolz gila.

So the next week tu exam week. So, macam ketegangan mula menghilang sebab chillax gila setakat jaga exam dekat dalam dewan sungguh rasa berkuasa. Haha.Berjalan pusing pusing dalam dewan baca jawapan diorang bahaha boleh lah tahan. Pastu apa lagi ya? Ha takdelah, exam for the whole week and taraa cuti. Sekolah cuti saya pun cuti ah ;)

Apa ke motif nak letak gambar banyak banyak? Saja. daripada dok nyemak di dalam memory telefon. di samping dapat memeriahkan suasana. Ya cuti berlambak lagi......gegegegegegegege. O_O

love♥
dyaJ

Schoolastic.

2011-05-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

One thing I learnt today.

Raising children is not easy, mind you to educate them; super duper mighty hyperforce dang hard.

I am working as a temporary teacher in a school somewhere near my house. Glad to get the post. I'll get money, i'll get experience. At least, it'll be able to help me during my practical, hopefully. With students like mine, haha, malas nak sambung ayat. I am going to teach students Science subject for all Form Two students and PSK (Sivik Kenegaraan) for Form Four. Cuba kira berapa ramainya itu? Raaammmmaaaaiiiii. Thank God I will be there til early July so i will be able to join UiSF again this year. Though, i have to let go of the Scholars Cup. Takpa lah kot. Diorang kata, jangan tamak semua nak bolot tapi mana boleh tahan Scholars Cup macam best ja i nak jumpa dak comeycomey dari France kalau ada cewah di samping mencari pals mana tau tiba tiba dapat keluarga angkat pastu nanti dia bawak pergi melancong pastu terjumpa dengan seorang yang kaya baik hati okay stopberangan .haha.

Jadi cikgu susah woh. Whateverlah jadi educator memang susah. Dah la jadi cikgu baru tak kenal sesiapa kecuali penolong kanan koko dia iaitu my parents' friend tapi itu pun bukannya kenal sangat cakap pun sepatah dua je pastu dengan environment sekolah yang besar gila, nak pergi kantin pun sesat larat dah macam amazing race rasa. Walaupun begitu, di saat students panggil you cikgu you akan tersenyum macamlah you dapat anugerah pelakon pembantu tv popular sebab the feeling tu macam best ah, dia macam wahhh. Haha.

New things to be taught and to make sure they understand, okay kalau tak faham pun at least they know. But it is not easy. It is faaarrrr beyond the theories we learnt in any subjects in classes. Scaffolding, ZPD, we know all that but to apply it; hurm macam payah. Even Piaget atau Montessori hanya akan menggeleng kepala pastu vertafakur, menadah tangan memohon petunjuk Ilahi. See last last mintak tolong pada Tuhan jugak, ha tulah kita ni memang hamba Allah yang lemah. Jadi mari bertaubat dan banyakkan amalan. Students especially in lower classes y'know ah you cakap depan dia menyanyi lagu Irwansyah kat belakang. Kuat kuat lak tu, sikit lagi je nak duet. The girls are more into marriage mind setting. Betoi ni. Dah berangan nak kahwin ada anak dua dah ada nama. Okay fine la y'all early teenagers fine suka imagine but inside the class? And saying it out loud? Okay fine ah you're not mature but but but but.. isk. Yeah, i'm lack of experience, this is my first experience being in school and i am trying hard but i guess all these are mutual lah. If only teachers who show efforts while the students aren't, macamana tu?

Soalan yang boleh melangkaui minda juga adalah seperti :

"Cikgu, apa itu cinta?" pfft. ewah, macam dalam filem.Haha

"Cikgu, mintak nombor telefon nak bagi dekat abang saya. " O_O Whatthe.

We mostly talk in Malay. But it somehow amazed me to see some students who can't answer BM paper. I guess repekrepek dan mereka cerita is hard for them. They should be more imaginative kot *ahem*. Questions consisted of 3 essays and they stuffed it in a piece of paper and i was like O.O Bahasa sendiri kot bai. Hurm, i guess things should not be like this. Susahnya lahh nak ajar bebudak ini. Entah lah but i guess maybe they are still young kot. Entah entah i don't know. Kids nowadays ah very difficult one you know. Hish.

Ya lah kan, educating children is not easy. And it is solely on teachers. Okay tak la solely tapi mostly.

Gratitude to all teachers in the world.

Wah, macam post hari guru lak. ah whatever.

Nak letak gambar students, tapi nanti lah.

Love♥

dyaJ

Deeper conversation.

2011-05-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And I'm learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me all your hopes and fears
and everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world?

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me.
I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

byYuna.

p.s : Another favourite song that help me voice out my heart. Need to learn it, asap.

Love and hearts;
dyaJ

Aidil. Adam. Nur

2011-05-20T00:23:00.001+08:00

You know how much i fancy love stories because it's more to fantasies than realities. And being as imaginative as me, love stories is the best thing. It's not like hoooo mak berangan pagi petang siang malam. but i guess at least these kind of stories somehow exist walaupun in movies, novels etc.

TV bersiri dia mengisahkan kisah Aidil, adam dan Nur. Adam dan Aidil adalah adik beradik. Nur suka pada Adam sejak kecil. Dan Aidil pula suka pada Nur. Adam adalah seorang lelaki yang liar dan rendah pegangan agamanya lantas ayah mereka Hassan membuat untuk mengahwinkan Adam dan Nur kerana baginya Nur mampu membawa Adam pulang ke arah jalan yang diredhaiNya di samping pertolongan Aidil. Aidil memendam rasa tetapi dia redha yang Nur bukan jodohnya. Kisah bertambah menarik apabila Adam tidak mempunyai perasaan terhadap Nur dan insiden demi insiden berlaku membuatkan cinta Adam dan Nur bercambah di samping pegangan agama yang menjadi panduan.

I just got back from the cinema from watching Nur Kasih The Movie. Awesome movie. I like it, as much as i like the tv series. It is a continuation of 6 years later after the series. Macam filem ini sambungan selepas the series. Few characters macam Alia and Sarah tiada however they replaced them with two cute kiddies named Mariam by MiaSara and Elyas, quite significant to the movie sebab there's moment Elyas buat mampu buat penonton menangis di luar sedar. ;)

Tema cinta dia memang besar. Cinta Adam pada Nur terlalu besar and vice versa. They really love each other. Ish. dan pengorbanan yang mereka lakukan itu demi cinta juga terlalu besar. I respect that. I respect cinta mereka antara satu sama lain. Cinta Aidil terhadap Nur walau mereka tidak ditakdirkan bersama juga terlalu besar. You know, benda macam yang diorang lakukan itu memang susah la nak cari sekarang ni.

You know, Adam sanggup meredah padang pasir, untuk mencari cincin perkahwinan Nur where it was found out that dia hilang. Nur pulak dengan penuh kegigihan pergi mencari suaminya yang hilang itu dengan keadaan ribut pasir, panas bagai. Tak boleh cerita banyak la, pergi tengok okay.

It is out of audiences' expectations. I expect this thing, tengok tengok benda lain. I expect things twice when it didn't come out to my expectations.

Tapi yang kurang menariknya, plot permulaannya agak pantas tetapi dia masih mampu mengawal perkembangan kisah dan pandai pula ditonjolkan detik detik sedih tu. Sedih kot. I cried. Many audiences cried. Haha. Satu jam setengah memang macam tak mencukupi.

I give 3.75 over 5 because of the storyline and the emotions put in plus the sceneries. Awesomeness padang pasir di Jordan buat kita rasa macam kita pula yang nak pergi Jordan. :)

Oh yes, one more. Lagu dia sedap gila!

The best character is Aidil. He is a strong man. He really is. Huuu, is there any men with so much love and care for their loved ones nowadays? I hope there is. Please la ada because i need one, like seriously. Haha. So gegirl yang di luar sana, go and watch this movie, it's not only about care, it's about love.

True love i could say from a true man.

p.s : It would be nice if you watch the series tu dulu :)

love♥

dyaJ

Bandit indie.

2011-05-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

I am an imaginative woman. *I'm a woman, I'm 21*. Good friends will know how much i could imagine. Imagine, imagine. I looked at someone's ear and i could imagine how would it be inside it. I mean the organisms la. Motif la haku nak pi duduk dalam telinga orang? Very disgusting one you know.Hahah. I talked with unhygienic individuals, i imagine things. This is a disease. Euwhhh.

Sifat cintakan imaginasi di dalam diri ini mula bercambah selepas mengalami kehantukan kepala di dinding lantas mengeluarkan cairan merah iaitu darah! Okay, tipu. takde darah. Maka kepala otak mula mengembleng tenaga untuk mencetuskan imaginasi indah bagi menghilangkan kepedihan di kepala. Ha, dari situlah. Imaginasi timbul terus jadi hobi. Even kalau bersembang dengan orang pun i can still imagine things. Depends on the subjects.

So banyak benda sudah terimagined di dalam kepala saya. Saya pernah imagined dulu, yang konon kononya saya ini damsel in distress pastu dekat sebelah rumah ni ada prince *pfftt euweuw* ha, pastu kitaorang jadi member, main badminton samasama pastu jadi bestfriend ha best apa. Lepas tu saya pernah jugak imagine kalau saya boleh mengecilkan diri pastu bila dah jadi kecil, ha boleh ride kucing saya yang ada dua tu pastu boleh cari leprachaun. Haaa. Seronok okay.

Okay yang paling best bila kita imagine kita ada band. Mula mula dulu memang dah planned nak ada all-girls band. Or duo or trio. Tapi macam masalah sangat not all girls wanna be in a band and not all my friends can play percussion and stuff. Orang nak buat band ala ala Paramore takpun indie macam Hujan ke. Ha, tapi macam tak berapa nak menjadi sangat. Aishah my housemate and me planned something tapi nanti nanti lah. Next sem. Got to get myself a guitar dulu yang bunyi sedap macam Gibson. Tapi mahal betul tu harga macam riburibu tu so kita jangan aim tinggi, strumming pun bunyi tak berapa, nak guitar mahal. Cisse. Pastu mula la nak bikin single chewahh and cover album. Ha, pastu dah retis jadi artis boleh jumpa Kay AF9 atau berduet dengan Anuar Zain haa lol kat situ berangan lebihlebih.

Ha pastu bila dah ada band baru fikir pasal cover album. Ha, ambik kau sebijik. Guna muka beachfriends dulu lah sementara. Ui, jangan mintak royalty tahu. Kalau korang nak jadi ahli boleh gak. Save budget nak buat audition.Haha.

Saya pasti album indie band saya ini akan lebih meletop dari GulaGula mahupun 24:7. Jyeahhhh!

Love♥

dyaJ

Mengarut

2011-05-15T01:14:00.001+08:00

Kay is my favourite student in AF and he had been eliminated just now. Pity him.

I don't know why i like him. He is an average singer but he is tall and he has dimples. Tho he is just an average singer, he has his own tone and i like it. However, he can't beat Hafiz AF7. Hafiz AF7 is wayy better and cuter eventhough he is shorter.

I have devoted *wah, kelas kau devoted* my free time or should i say, i actually allocate my time to watch reality TV shows and most of them are singing competitions and another half of them are adventurous shizz like Survivor, Amazing Race blabla. However, since i like to sing and i love music regardless on what genre they are in, i am focusing more on those. To be compared with others, the longest reality tv programme that i watched is Akademi Fantasia. Pfft. I watched them since AF1 kot. Ha, kelas kau maria.It was when i was 13. Ha, Form One and it had become the boombangkebabom in-thing in Malaysia until there were a whole lot of other reality TV shizz like Audition la, MyStarzLG bagai and lastly Mentolr. Then after all these singing thingies, there comes Raja Lawak, Pilih Kasih, apabenda entah lagi sampai la nowadays they kecohkecoh with Maharaja Lawak.

Why am i writing about this tonight? First i am bored and second, yes i am bored. I watched AF9 just now and it turned me off.

Things i don't really like in reality TV programmes:

The contestants are average singers. They don't have strong voice and attitude
Oh my gosh the tagline. Oi, the audience are adults tau. I'm 21. *ahem!
The voting system.
The fans. Hamboi kemain lagi.
The programme itself. It should be enhanced.

Call me a fanatic, i am not going to deny. I like watching the show, and I even have favourite student(s) in the show. Good to have new things on TV, new faces, new methods. I watched Imam Muda and it was awesome. New Imams for the community, dang it's good.

If you are not watching these kind of programmes, well it's good for you. Seriously.

Thanks for reading these ramblings of mine.

Goodnight.

Love♥

dyaJ

Mustahil boleh undur.

2011-05-09T03:23:00.003+08:00

My parents fetched me last Saturday; picked all the stuff and settled things with the new tuan rumah. Yes, we're gonna move to another rent house next semester. Exactly in front of the Intec's guards booth. Ha eloklah tu kata mak. Pity the tuan rumah who is suffering from backbones disease/injuries. He's dang kind kot. He provides us with fully furnished house with additional carpet and coffee table for rm750/month. Awesome. Parents was happy, I am happy.

After that we went to our long time neighbour's house. Masa i duduk KL dulu. Masa i dengan anak dia si Firdaus, Ikram main basikal dan berkejaran macam gila, main pasir pergi panjat itu ini main kotor tu. Their house is somewhere in Section 20. So we went and met them. Ikram is taller than her dad, Asmina the sister is going to get engaged ke apantah and the other younger siblings. Firdaus wasn't there, he is somewhere entah mana belajar dia tu taktaulah. Phew. The best part was when the mother showed us a picture of me and Firdaus.. oh and Ikram. Haha coolness i was looking quite cute la kot with an orange top and a short. She said i was quite rough those days so it's only me who played with them. ;') Haha. entah, saya dah lupa.

So we went home with me feeling feeling oh-cepatnya-masa-berlalu-saya-dah-besar-okay-dah-21-tahun-tak-sangka-cepat-betul-blablablablabla. Like seriously time flies fast. So just now, tiba tiba fefeeling mengimbaumasalampau so i went to the cabinet and pull out an album of me. Adoring how cute was me (dulu jela sekarang memang tak) when i was a baby ~~babies~~ and stuff.

Yeah, I was born as the first daughter in the family. a normal one. Not rich nor poor. Ups and downs, bits and pieces i can't believe i am still alive with nice family members, good neighbours (ehem!) and obviously awesome,cool friends. I should've been in grateful enough to have them around me.

From as small as toddler, to a kid, to an adult.

With family and friends; bfs, good friends and frenemies lol.

Teringin gak nak letak gambar waktu kecik. nah dua ketol.

Best waktu kecik nih dulu.

Alhamdulillah for everything ya Allah.

love♥
dyaJ

Kotak lama.

2011-05-05T04:08:00.001+08:00

*Sebab benda ini dah lama.

Sedikit mungkin biasa, bertambah lagi tapi masih optimistik dan kalau dah macam banyak, mungkin akan timbul pesimistik dan kalau dah berlebihan akan mengundang rasa sadis. Okay peduli apa lantak dengan sifat sikap optimis pesimis kismis orang kerana diriku lebih berharga itu akan berpatah semula dan membuat dirimu seperti terkena boomerang yang dibaling tersodok diri sendiri. Ha, kalau tak faham sila pedulikan. Benda subjektif abstrak macamni bukan senang nak diukir menjadi sesuatu yang umum nak nak pula di ~~malam~~ pagi hari yang hening.

Fikir tentang perkara yang seronok seronok yang buat adrenalin kau melonjak naik macam kau naik roller coaster kat Goldcoast. Cuba pula fikir tentang detik bilamasa kau bergelak ketawa macam nak keluar urat tengkuk, fikir pula adegan sedih payah jerih bergelumangnya engkau dengan airmata. Fikir tentang segala yang engkau tahu atau tidak tahu, atas apa sumbangan entiti entiti yang ada di ~~sepeceluk~~ setiap tepi kiri kanan depan belakang kau. Ya masa itu memang berharga buat apa nak fikir yang lepas lepas kan tapi entah, sesetengah orang terlalu mengikut kata logik akal untuk tidak mengenang masa lampau.

Okay susah nak explain.

Bukan semua orang pandai tunjukkan rasa sayang pada sesuatu/seseorang. Tapi setiap manusia perlukan penghargaan dari orang sekelilingnya. Semua orang nak diri dia dihargai dan rasa diri dihargai itu saja sudah jadi satu elemen penting dalam perkembangan atau pengekalan sesuatu hubungan. Did i mention anything about boomerang yg tersodok? oh dah.

Point dia adalah kau hargai tak orang sekeliling kau?

Sebab mereka hargai kau, wey. Ya, masih lagi.

p.s : Tersampai atau tidak agaknya?

love♥
dyaJ

Emoskrin, merah hitam kekelip.

2011-04-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Macam dah lama tak online sebab saya balik rumah dol dan selain itu saya ingat laptop saya yang jatuh tempohari tidak berfungsi tetapi apabila mencuba menekan butang, menyala pula dirinya tetapi kadang kadang warna merah, biru, gelap gelita dan selalunya akan berkelip kelip hitam merah seperti lampu liplapliplap hari raya. Agak menarik kalau guna macam selama lima minit tapi cuba renung dalam setengah jam, maka akan timbul rasa amarah seperti ingin melempar sahaja alatan supersonik ini tapi dengan lekas saya mengambil langkah berjaga jaga dengan meminum air milo ais. Pfft. Whatever merapu lara so saya guna saja lah sementara nak baiki dan buat assignment. Jangan tanya kenapa saya tak bawa, saya sudah bawa cuma tak pergi suruh orang tu baiki je lagiii. Nak tau kenapa sila tanya tuan kedai komputer.

Okay vastdavoom mari kita tulis perkara di minda.

01.

Rambut panjang dah jadi bob. Penampilan baru dan kebanyakan orang suka walau tak semua tapi saya rasa saya tak patut peduli itu semua. Sekian.

02.

CABUL adalah singkatan untuk CAkap lain BUat Lain. Nampak tak nampak tak? Dah highlight warna pink jangan kata tak nampak lagi.

Banyak benda nak dibicarakan pasal ni. Macam sesetengah orang mungkin kata pada makhluk A pasal makhluk B, kau kata "Wey, aku ske ah kau berbaik dengan dia, aku memang suka sebab aku okay je dol " tapi jap lagi kau pergi hantar message kat dia iaitu makhluk B, kau kata " Psst, kau jangan nak berbaik baik dengan dia si budak A tu, jangan rapat rapat dengan dia, aku tak ske."

Sorry ye abang kakak jap lagi makhluk A dapat tahu dari makhluk B sebab makhluk B dengan makhluk A baik antara satu sama lain. Itu pun secara tak sengaja lak tu si dak B bagitahu dak A. Ini yang saya tak suka ini. Ish ish ish.

Malas nak kata, ni wa kena sendiri ni. So saja la nak kata, sebab kadang kadang kan, perkara perkara macam ini, saya macam nak bagitahu depan depan, macam nak tanya individu itu " wey awak kenapew buart sayew macarm ni, awark ni jahaatttt tawwwww (baca: Lu pehal macam ni perangai dol? Cari pasal ke der? Lu sekarang jangan nak kata tak tak, lu ngaku sekarang!!" tapi macam taknak sebab mungkin saya ini penakut atau mungkin juga saya ini terlalu lemah psikologinya pada ketika ini jadi saya mengambil keputusan untuk menulis sahaja di ruangan ini. Sebarang pertanyaan sila hubungi jiran saya.

Kalau tak faham sila proceed.

03.

Peperiksaan akhir bakal menjelang. Berbekalkan dua final papers je itupun pada bulan Mei makanya study leave ini saya habisi dengan membuat assignment yang baru mula nak buat dan juga di samping menceburkan diri dalam aktiviti riadah berkuak lentang di dalam rumah iaitu berehat, bersantai. Pfft memang pemalas. Selain itu saya juga menceburkan diri dalam aktiviti memasak makanan enak selain menonton rancangan kegemaran tempatan seperti Sinetron Marimar yang macam best je kalau lu takde aktiviti nak buat dan juga menonton siri kegemaran House, NCIS dan CSI tidak dilupakan Phineas dan Ferb dan adik Spongebob Squarepants.

Jadi kepada semua batchmates yang mengambil minor kaunseling seperti Momon dan juga Fana dan Teha dan Zac dan Dydy dan Akin dan semuanya saya ucap Good Luck la korang. Heeeheee.

Oh dan kepada individu lain juga yang tengah exam.

04.

Hutang. Bayar hutang itu wajib dan kalau orang tu lupa kena lah diingatkan dirinya. Hurm. Wajib dol. Wajib wajib wajib.

05.

Annoying atau tidaknya seseorang itu bergantung kepada atas siapa perlakuan itu dilakukan. Kalau individu itu chillax-je-la-bro-wa-rasa-cool-je so okay lah. Tapi setengah orang dia macam wey-wa-sikitsikit-wa-tahan-dulu kita kena faham la sebab setengah orang yang terannoyed ni dia tak cakap sebab you pun tak expect dia jap lagi dia mengaum kat you kalau you annoyed dia benar kan. And kadangkadang orang yang annoying ni pulak maybe dia macam chillaxlepakgoyangkangkung sebab dia pernah buat kat you tapi you diam je so dia buat la lagi. So apa je nak buat? Slowmotalk la paling baik kot. Haha whatever. Kalau dah buat tapi dia derk je buat juga so sila jauhkan diri barang sepicing dua kerana kalau semakin lama kelak diri yang semakin terannoy. Gitew.

Yang suka mengannoy, come on la. Sikitsikit sudah.

Okay nampaknya sudah berkelipkelip jua dirinya. Saya sudah mula rasa amarah dan sakit hati, minda jiwa dan mata jadi saya pergi dulu, mandi pastu minum milo ais.

K dah bai korang. Take care, selamat beramal.

Love♥

dyaJ

Patah tak tumbuh lagi.

2011-04-13T19:27:00.001+08:00

Kita memang takkan tahu apa yang akan berlaku dalam hidup kita, apa akan jadi pada barangan kita atau perhubungan kita. Sesetengah manusia hebat cuba mencorak akan masa depannya dan mula merancang perkara yang akan menyenagkan kepada hidupnya kelak. Oh baguslah begitu. Ada usaha, yang tinggal hanya tawakal dan doa. Okay, fine habis disitu. Mukadimah kita pada hari, detik ini.

Cakap banyak tak guna bai.

Tapi sayacuma nak kata , awak, kalau layan kawan, layan elok elok. Sebab kawan dengan bukan kawan ada banyak beza. Kawan knows more about you. He/she spends a lot of time with you, and stuff. So bagila layanan yang munasabah untuk dirinya. Sebab awak manusia, dia juga manusia, tambah lagi dia kawan awak. Jangan kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga. Kawan awak ada perasaan, otak hati, mata sama seperti awak. Senang cerita macam ni, kalau awak duduk tempat dia dan awak juga dilayan sebegitu rupa, awak akan rasa apa sahaja yang dia akan rasa. Cumanya kali ini dia rasa sedih. Sedih sekali.

Come on lah, walau apa pun masalahnya pasti ada jalan penyelesaian. Turunkan ego atau apa saja yang awak panggil dan berbincang sewajarnya. Jangan cuba mengguris hati manusia sebab manusia ada kesabarannya.
Seperti span yang akan menyerap walau segayung air dituang tapi bila sudah penuh, dia akan de-absorb. Setiap titis akan keluar dan sudah tiada fungsi.

Saya menulis dengan akal yang waras, hati yang tenang. Walau sedalam mana pun luka terguris, sebanyak mana air mata mengalir. Saya bercakap sejujurnya. Telus, bukan masalah sangat, saya cuma minta layanan yang baik.
Yang tidak mengguris, yang tidak membuat sakit.

Sebab persahabatan adalah istimewa. Dan layanan untuk kamu sebagai kawan adalah berbeza dengan mereka yang bukan.

Tak banyak yang saya minta. Tapi tak apa, mungkin akan ada yang berkata, hei melampaunya permintaan kau, manusia adalah sama tiada beza. Jangan beriya.

Tapi fikir semula, kamu akan layan boyfriend/girlfriend kamu macam kamu layan jiran kamu ke? This is mutual man. Kalau awak taknak dilayan sebegitu, awak ingat dia nak ke?

Fikir balik macamana kamu layan kawan kamu dan renung-renungkan. Tak mintak banyak pun.

Whatever.Ciao.

Akar saya masih teguh. walau daun tiada lagi.
Pic credit to Gugel.

p.s: Sorry lah takde kata penutup.

love♥
dyaJ

SupremeSunday.

2011-04-10T21:55:00.001+08:00

Sejak tengahari tadi,

I masak perkara yang i benar benar nak makan tapi bila dah masak, i tak makan habis pun.

I boiled the water untuk bancuh minuman yang i nak tapi bila the water dah boiled i tak buat air pun.

I sat in front of the tv, switched it on and waited for Spongebob tapi bila Spongebob started, i pergi tidur.

I put the earphones on tapi i tak bukak lagu pun.

I stood by the windowsill and look into infinity for quite a long time.

I lepak atas katil tapi hanya pandang besi tu.

I woke up in the middle of the sleep doing nothing, and then go back to sleep.

I sat and just sat.

I don't know what happened to me. Sigh.
I think i should go mandi.

Love♥
dyaJ

loopdeloop.

2011-04-07T20:28:00.000+08:00

Toleransi.
Sangat penting ye nak nak pula dikala tengah detik detik yang amat sibuk. Esok saja ada dua tests, microteaching dan dua journals yang nak dihantar. Oh lupa pula report untuk kita punya Creative Project. Itu belum habis lagi. Hari Selasa minggu depan ada dua presentations dan juga test untuk Literature dan Media dan bagai bagai lagi, belum buat video untuk 2rd language blablablablablablablabla jadi amatlah penting sekiranya toleransi antara setiap individu itu terbentuk bagi mengurangkan risoko di lahar atau tersentap secara tibatiba kerana pada masa getir seperti ini amatlah mudah untuk sesiapa sahaja naik anginnya dan terus meruap emosinya. Argh itu tidak termasuk lagi dengan perkara perkara seperti masalah emosi, keluarga, kewangan dan sebagainya.

Jadi, silalah bertoleransi.Saya ulangi, toleransi atau in English, please tolerate.

Kebersihan.
Bak kata iklan serbuk pencuci Top. " Kebersihan hakiki datang dari hati yang suci."

Jadi lu fikirla sendiri bai.

Pencarian pasal di antara satu individu dengan yang lain.
Okay topik hangat. Adalah lebih baik kiranya jika tiada persengketaan yang berlaku di antara kita. Oops, mungkin antara kamu dan dia, dia dan kamu atau sesiapa. Mngkin juga kita. Tiada siapa yang tahu. Jadi adalah lebih baik jika ingin mencari pasal, sila mencarinya di masa yang lain atau dengan orang lain kerana apa, pencarian pasal di saat saat yang menekan seperti sekarang adalah tidak sesuai kerana pencarian pasal anda mungkin tidak akan mendapat respon makanya anda juga yang akan keciwaaaaaaa sebab kantol. HAHAHAHAH. Okay dah apabenda aku merepek.

Perasaan cinta kasih sayang dan sebagainya.
Tiada kata seindah bicara yang mampu mengungkap bisik sukma hati buat kau. Kerana banyak pula unggas unggas halus yang dihantar oleh makhluk bermata hijau yang cuba menggugat ketenteraman hidup aku. Gitew! LOL. Tapi tak apa, berdiri masih mampu untuk aku.

Okay fine. Abang library pun dah buat announcement. Nak buat journals, baca tests juga
K lah bai.

love♥
dyaJ

penakut.

2011-04-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Tak semua kau rancang kan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

-sukakau.byyuna.

p.s: biarmalamkelam,sepisesepidiriku.

love♥
dyaJ

Inai kelabu.

2011-03-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

Sejuk beku yang menyalut tubuh tidak mungkin mampu membuat hati pejal bagai batu.
Angin menderu pun tak bisa menolak kukuhnya kaki mencengkam bumi.

Sungguh kau bukan aku.
Dan walau dekat sekali pun kau, rapat hingga tiada ruang lagi antara kau dan aku,

Masih. Jauh lagi kau dengan aku.

Dan jangan lagi bermimpi, mencari arus rasa yang sebelum ini digembar gembur bagai mengorek tanah untuk menanam ubi.

Sebab ianya sudah dikorek kembali, tak sempat ia menabur budi.

Rasa itu semakin pergi.

Au revoir, sayang.

love ♥
dyaJ

Sempurna.

2011-03-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

Aku manusia lemah
selalu terjatuh
Berbeza aku dari mu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan dan bila kau tiba
Aku hilang dari kewujudan.

Sempurnanya sifat mu
Tulusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu, tingginya kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku,
kerna aku tak mampu untuk menanggung
sebuah cinta sempurna darimu.

-yuna.

love♥
dyaJ

2011-03-15T13:44:00.000+08:00

Avez-vous deja pense a moi?
love ♥dyaJ

Cinq-pieces

2011-03-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Une.
I am still at home. Seri Manjung Bandar Maritim *kachingkononnya*.haha.
Entah bila tatau nak balik. Abah said he will send me back to Shah Alam Bandar Anggerik *ke?lol* tomorrow maybe. I should have gone mandi but i keep on waiting (read: procrastinating) because i wanna have late night bath though i know it is not healthy and it is actually midnight now. Okay pemalas cakap la pemalas. blurgh.

Deux.
I've got a kitten. They called it Puteri, Riri, Blackberry (entah kenapa),Blueberry (okay boleh terima sebab mata dia biru) but i called it Kucing. Sempoi tak? Haha gila krisis identiti kucing tu nanti. Hahahaha. I didn't snapped any pictures of it sebab i am tthhaatt lazy.

Trois.
Abang Ngah's phone is ringing. Should i pick it up? *evillaugh* Tak tak tak. Okay, kita tengok je.

Amboi Syafiqah called you alls. HAHAHAHA.

Quatre.
Okay sudah midnight. Baik mandi sekarang.

Ciao mon amis.

Love ♥
dyaJ

hati biru

2011-03-12T22:16:00.001+08:00

Dan bisiknya pada langit,

" Aku bukanlah anak kecil yang merengek pabila jatuhnya gula gula ke tanah, dan bukan juga sepohon semalu yang kuncup disapa sentuhan. Aku bukan manusia yang terlalu naif untuk kau umpan dengan kata kata kau, dusta, onar dan nista kau.Sayangnya aku pada dia bukan bermakna aku terlalu taksub dengan rasa dan menangisnya aku bukan kerana ditolaknya cinta.

dan titisan yang jatuh dari mataku, tiada bermaksud apa.
cuma sayu yang kadangkala tiba, bila minda mula mengikut rasa.

Selamat malam dunia. Semoga kau dan aku gembira.
Bila esok kita bukakan mata."

Ironi. Tiada yang mendengar.

p.s : Gthd.

- ♥ Ungu.

love ♥
dyaJ

hati ungu

2011-03-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

Dan bila diajukan dengan persoalan yang bila diutarakan mampu menggerakkan saraf saraf medulla oblongata untuk berfikir, mencernakan unjuran kata, tiada siapa mampu menjelaskan apa yg berlaku kerana tiada yang benar benar pasti dan tahu.

terima kasih kepada kamu.

dan jet'aime kepada kamu yang lagi satu.

love,
dyaJ

#Selfnote.

2011-03-02T16:59:00.000+08:00

Ya hari ini aku harap hari kau baik baik saja dan berjalan dengan lancarnya, selancar air mengalir dari laut ke sungai. Dan aku harap detik detik indah kau dapat sematkan dalam album gembira kau. Kelak kau boleh buka dan belek belek semula saat kau berduka. Dan pada setiap permasalahan yang kau timbulkan pasti ada jalan penyelesaian, tapi kau kena bersabar, gunakan sehabis daya kerana di akhir hari nanti keputusannya akan memuaskan hati. Dan kau mungkin gusar dengan apa jua yang berlaku, tentang persoalan yang mana jawapannya mungkin tidak langsung berpaling terhadap kau. Terus pergi dan biarkan kau sendiri, berbekalkan sedikit usaha dan yakin pada diri. Tapi aku tahu, dan aku harap kau juga tahu, yang aku disini pasti kau akan memilih jalan yang pasti, yang kelak menguntungkan kau. Walau mengambil sedikit masa.

Aku tau la bukan setiap hari kau okay sentiasa, tapi tabahlah wahai awek. Buka tingkap, pandang luar dan ambil nafas dalam dalam.

*inhale,exhale.

#agoni

2011-03-02T05:01:00.001+08:00

Dan memang moving on itu terlalu sukar sampai malam tak jadi malam, bersengkang mata groogroo macam burung hantu yang kepatahan sayap lagaknya pabila dihentam badai gelora yang buat hati dan otak sentap gilagila punya.

Sayang seribu kali sayang.

***

Sudah berapa kali dia cuba mencorak garis senyum di pipi. Berjuta.

Sayang seribu kali sayang lagi, tiada yang mengerti semuanya cuma mahu masuk bakul angkat sendiri dan berlari membawa sebesar mana bakul yang mampu di angkat tangan sendiri, bawa dan pikul ke serata alam agar semua perkara boleh dibawa masuk ke dalam nya, tinggi muatannya, semakin berat ia menjadi.

Tinggal dia, tanpa bakul kerana terlalu miskin sehingga menitis air matanya pun dijilat buat penghilang dahaga yang muncul di terik bahang mentari. Kasihan. dan agoni.

***

Dan otak yang berputar setiap kali mata tertancap pada bait bait kata indah yang hanya dilakar di khayalnya minda membuat matanya kelam dengan lantas kabur tidak mampu menatap kaftan biru tersarung di sosok tubuh yang terperuk di sudut yang sekali dijangkau mata tidak kesampaian.

Dan katanya tiada duka yang mampu menjentik walau sekelumit ruang di hatinya kerana dirasakan hatinya itu cukup kebal.

Cheh, tapi yang taptaptap dari kelopak mata tu apa?

***
Dan setiap kali rasa sayu pilu menjenguk ruang hati yang lohong, meja hitam menjadi peneman, mesin taip menjadi pendengar dan nescafe o penghilang dahaga.

" Kebal itu tiada dan ini bukan mimpi."

diikuti dengan bunyi hingus disedut dalam dalam. Cukup agoni.

love♥
dyaJ

Groogroo bunyi owl.

2011-02-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

And ehem, i had nothing to do so i feel numb and bored and bored and bored.

I am watching Spiderman 3 now. I don't know, among all the superheroes i'd watch, i never really like Spidey even though i am amazed with the power he had, ada lelabah punya string. Haha. He's not that strong like Superman who can punch villains sampai terbang, he doesn't have super car like Batman's,and he's not that tall. Haha demand haku.

And then there's a part where he asked the woman yang entah siapa to kiss him, when his girlfriend si Mary Jane was also there and the moment was captured and be the front page of the next day's tabloid. Motif desperate for attention? and yesza i understand Mary Jane's feelings when they when to the dinner on the same day he kissed the woman.Argh. Haha.

p.s : and oh yeah, i don't like his hair. Hahaha.

Oh ye, i was dang bored, so i walked in and out the house, checking on Momo's kittens, tried to touch one of the babies tapi kena tampar tangan dengan kucing kedekut tu. Motif, orang nak sentuh je kot. Hish! Duh, i don't like cats btw.

Alors, inilah benda yang kita buat kalau kita bosan ya. Takde kerja.

Kthanksbye.

Love♥

dyaJ

Tiada apa.

2011-02-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

Great, I don't know what to write.

Dan kekadang aku terfikir mana perginya angin sepoi bila teriknya matahari hilang di sebalik awan yang menyelubungi?

...............

And yes I slept at 9.18 pm last night. Right after finishing some assignments; beautify the slides (takdelah cantik sangat pun) and selak selak kejap buku French. Yet, i went to sleep though Aisyah ada ajak kita jamming Jar of Hearts barang sekali dua.

Okay mari masak breakfast. Kthanksbye.

p.s : Clueless dol nak tulis.

love♥

dyaJ

Puitis.

2011-02-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

Bisikku pada bulan

Kembalikan temanku

Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemani

Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang

Biar alam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku ...

(Khalil Gibran)

A poem from the movie Sepi. Yes, it was such a nice movie.

A sad one. But I like it.

p.s : Minggu ini minggu puitis; for me, at least.

Love♥

dyaJ

taktahu

2011-02-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Mungkin bukan pada awan aku meratap.

Bukan juga pada langit aku bersedih.

Dan aku bukan ketawa bila hilangnya duka.

Duka itu aku simpan dalam laci hati.

Yang bila dibuka tak mampu ditutup lagi.

Melankolik deruan muzika di sisipan lipatan rasa hati.

Aku cinta kau.

Kita tunggu.

Aku tunggu.

Love♥

dyaJ

Sepatah dua kata.

2011-02-14T02:57:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah.

Oh ya, saya dah besar okay. a twenty-one year old lady. Gitew. Haha. Thanks for the wishes. I appreciate those. Thanks for not throwing me flour and stuff. Thanks for being my friends. Thanks for being my housemates. Thanks for being my pals. Thanks for being understanding. Thanks for reading my blog. Thanks for being a follower. Thanks for being understanding. Thanks for giving me presents. Thanks for calling. Thanks for messaging. Thanks for everything. Tau? I love you guys. Like a lot. :)

Time flies dang fast. I've never thought of being twenty-one at the first place. Gila kau dah besar siot. dah bolhe buat benda yang pelbagai. Hahah! Chehs berangan. Ya ya tak tau apabenda yang dah berubah. Perangai masih sama, imaginasi masih di puncak gunung minda, harapan cuma kematangan bertambah, rezeki dan kesihatan juga. Untuk saya dan kawan kawan semua. ;)

Penutup kata, nah ambik gambar saya yang vain diambang pengakhiran umur 20.LOL!! Bajet je. Apa kau ingat kau artis dya? Chehs.

p.s : Terima kasih semuanya.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Of people and me.

2011-02-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ohh mannn.

How can i missed out the fact that my other friend had engaged? Oh mann. Eversince i got the news later than the others, so i don't feel that excited anymore. Haha.Hodak betul semua orang nak kahwin la sekarang? Huuiii.

Entah, maybe i am wrong but i can't look at someone's face bila i am angry with that person. I don't like people when he didn't do his job instead he passed his job to others and get the title. Before the incident, he pergi gebang itu ini like he can help, he can do but at the end of the day there's nothing to be proud of. He didn't contribute anything. Nil. Just words. Sweet words. Emo tau macam ni. Okay bukan emo tapi disappointed. Please if you can't do the work, give others the opportunity. Others have their talents too btw. Takpe lah we will see. Maybe bila ada perkara yang berkenaan dengan i nanti maybe i will voice out lah. One day when the time comes. Sekarang lepak dulu. Haha. macam tu pulak kan.

And i attended the only class for today just now and again she said she was unhappy for the crosses she had to make everytime there are absentees from her class blablabla i guess she was kinda mad. and she asked whether we had any plans after her class and we said yes and she said something like "oh, i know from your reaction towards the lesson blablabla" and then she said she doesn't want to label our class pastu apabenda ntah.

So kena la lahar kejap then the people pun bagila reaction, bising la sikit dari sebelumnya. -__-

I don't want to say bout others, let's talk about me myself. I want to talk whenever she opened up topics but seems that everytime i said something like " I think..." or "Maybe..." , she ignored me as if she didn't hear it and that hurts me. Maybe my voice isn't loud enough ( ihaveloudvoicewey) but i guess she maybe wanted to say what she thinks first before that thing flies off her mind. But if she dah potong your words macam tu, so rasa nak bercakap tu sudah tiada. Makanya i pun diam je lah. Tapi bila diam dikatanya takde response pula. Motif tak motif -_- Another thing is that when she said things, she likes to look into one's eyes and say things. And when she look into my eyes, i feel ... entah i don't know but i don't like her to stare into people eyes because bila dia stare i will angguk angguk macam burung pungguk. Or i will stoned macam O_O. I don't know what's up with me.

Sometimes i pity her. Ya la, kesian wey macam tu. tapi what can i do to improve the situation? I tried saying my point of view, chewah padahal bukan selalu. Tapi takpelah at least i ade kot attempts dalam 4 ke 5 kali. Nak buat macamana lagi taktau lah.

Somebody, please enlighten me.

Love ♥,

dyaJ

From red chair to dark hair.

2011-02-05T18:28:00.001+08:00

Because today, you made my sit on my red chair alone. Again.

We aren't close. We rarely talk with each other. But we share glances. You stare at me when i look away. And i did the same thing too. Never i have any intention to have conversation with you.

But one day, i fell. From my chair because i was too eager to catch the butterflies. Too excited. Both my knees tore. And i cried. So loud no one would ever wanna sit beside me. But you. Later you gave me the butterflies you catch. And we share smiles.

We became close. You and your blue desk and me with my red chair. Things went fast. Seconds,minutes, hours, months and years. We grew up but we didn't give up. We still eat together, to walk and to play. And i know you are happy. as happy as me.

One time you met me, gave me a note and a kiss on the cheek. You said
"Take care and be safe, i know you will be fine".

And you went away. Leaving me with my little red chair.

To be with someone with dark hair.

You turn me off.

2011-02-03T20:57:00.001+08:00

You guys will make me bitter for at least 15 minutes. Secara zahir atau tersembunyi di hati :

1. Lelaki berusia yang bila bercakap membahasakan diri sebagai 'abang'. Dan bermuka gatal.

2. Homaigod. Remaja yang berbangga dapat naik motosikal dengan boyfriend dia. pastu dok jeling2 orang dengan berwajah "Kau ada?

3. Lelaki yang layan perempuan tertentu secara sopan tapi kurang ajar dengan wanita lain.

4. Para ibu bapa yang membiarkan anak kecil diorang pukul pukul orang dewasa, meludah, merampas barangan dan macam macam lagi. Diulangi, membiarkan.

5. Perempuan yang merasakan dirinya adalah yang paling hebat, cantik, anggun dan sebagainya lepastu rendahkan orang lain.

6. Orang yang baru kenal tapi dia buat macam dia dah kenal sejak lahir. Siap sentuh sentuh dan buat lawak annoying.

7. Wanita yang mungkin diketahui ramai mempunyai pelbagai bakat dan membuat mimik muka seperti " Mampu ke?" ketika dipandang oleh aku.

8. Mereka yang mengarah berlebihan. Sikit sikit takpe bro.

9. Lelaki yang smoking lepastu hembus hembus asap ke muka orang lain lepastu ketawa.

10. Mereka yang nipis tahap kesabarannya. i mean, terlalu nipis.

11. Orang yang bila dia IM dekat facebook and tak dilayan sebab i was watching tv ke mende terus emo pastu terus marah marah dan kata bye.

12. Golongan yang mengutuk kawan aku padahal kau kenal diorang pun tak.

13. Individu yang terlalu berkira sampai terfikir berjuta kali sebelum mahu membuat sesuatu bersamanya.

14. Lelaki dan wanita yang suka kawal kawal.

15.Golongan yang fikir TESL itu adalah sesuatu yang senang. Kau amik course TESL sekarang!

Okay. Dah bai!

p.s : Kau bitter tak kalau kena kat kau?

Love ♥

dyaJ

gtg.

2011-02-01T20:10:00.001+08:00

I should start doing assignments. A lot kot.

I watched American Idol season 10's audition. I watched Chris Medina. What, you don't know him? He sang Break Even. Not because of the song i'm talking bout him. It's because of his affection towards his fiancee. Yeah, yadayada. It's not easy to find a man. like him. Though i think it might be slightly hard for him to start a family with her. But who knows, maybe they can just stay like that, forever. It's just that, he's really kind. Have a sneak peek at him at you-tube.

I wonder if you like one person, how long would you take to tell him/her?

Some people might take one minute, one hour, a day, a month, a year.

Oh lupa. Few days ago, we went back to kampung and i helped my dad with the palm oil plantation. Family's farm. and he did some work. And i helped him. I am strong i angkat buah kelapa sawit gedabak berat tu kot. And it was tiring and thoughtful. Those works made me think of how tiring and hard the thing is. Hurm.

Semua lelaki sedang bising bising pasal bola sepak. Ada siapa ntah yang nak tukar kelab tu?

I miss watching House M.D.

We tend not to involve or talk or anything if we were with someone we don't really prefer to. Even in a classroom. Friends told me maybe i should try to involve, with her way of teaching and stuff but i just can't.

I just don't like her. I hope it's not hatred. Because in class i listen la jugak to what she says and angguk2 juga. But entahlah. Yeah, it's okay not to love, but not to like, payah lah. Betul cakap Mr. Kieran.

Lepas cuti ni mesti busy. Mavericks la , Getting to Know You la. Hish. Assignments and tests tayah tanya.

My sister. She wants a facebook account. Motif tak?

I miss my friends.

Hopefully they miss me too.

I think curly hairs are kinda cute.

Maybe i will grow my hair longer and transform it into this. HAHAHAHA. pastu gila kau berangan macam princess lagi. LOL. Hahahahahahahahha.

Love♥

dyaJ

brb.

2011-01-31T16:22:00.002+08:00

I am at home. Most of you guys pun at home. Good.

Abang Ngah haven't apply his UPU blabla yet. Ngeng. Nowadays even if you wanna study in IKM and stuff you need to apply through UPU kot. Haiyoh! I don't know la why boys/guys/males, they always look into things as if those are not important.

Academic intelligence and social intelligence (betul ke? eh, wtv) are two different things. Say, you are super duper dang intelligent clever mantap but you have low social intelligence pun tarak guna bai. Living in a community, i guess you better build up your social intelligence. Orang tak pandai sangat pun mampu hidup kalau communication skills dia hebat bro! So, you better think about this. Yang kau jeling2 aku apa hal? Nak gado? *Emo 2 saat

Today is already Monday. Then Tuesday,Wednesday,Thursday,Friday, Saturdayyyyy and Sunday.

This Saturday got Hindi movies entitled Faana. Nice yaw!

Today is already Monday.

I don't know when i'm going back to Shalam. Bosan ah cenggini.

And today is Monday already.

I didn't start anything, for assignments thingy. Okay fine, at least i read Animal Farm. Tu je lah pun.

Sitting in front of the laptop doing nothing is boring. Main games lah macam ini.

Bye babes.

Love♥

dyaJ

Monologue.

2011-01-26T08:29:00.000+08:00

Today is Wednesday. I know Monmon doesn't have any class today. Isk.

Yesterday was Tuesday and we had the Literature and Media class where the word 'Kell' was created. Yes, by me.

I don't know what to say anymore.

Everyone else is sleeping.

I just wanted to go home.

Which can only happen on Friday. And i have to skip classes to do that. I have to because there's nadaa tickets after that time.

I've told Mdm Nadia and she says okay.

But I haven't told Ms Elia. Brr.

It's 08.24.

Oh no, 8.25.

I had already made the draft for Mr Kieran's work. Hurm. But the draft is not yet finished. I have to finish it by tonight ya know. or tomorrow. Because he wants it on Friday.

Friday = I'm going home.

Woooh!

It's already 8.27.

I have to go.

Bye.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Frantically excited.

2011-01-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

My Libyan course mate married during our last semester break and God knows how amazed i am when Nadia the other course mate told me that she saw her and the husband when the husband sent her or something at the faculty. I was very curious and furious, ( eh, why should i be furious? LOL just kidding,i am not even furious) on how can she get married in such age, NOT being in your homeland and something, the studies blablabla, dahla she came back here on the 3rd week of studying and then with the status of a married woman. wow wow wow. Haha.

At last, we got to meet her just before the second class started. Oh the curiousity kills me. She is different from what she was last semester, the glow face of behaving a husband is still there. Ohohoho. I don't know! I can't accept this! I had to meet her husband! *Teruja teramat.

Because marriage is not a small thing. Hihi. We are not even 21 mann, we need more than just love to be that determine to get married woy. I also, frankly said sometimes imagine things but this is too awesome. LOLOL. HAHA i get so distracted about this and who knows next semester or something she might get pregnant pulak? HAHAHA I just pray she'll be in happiness, always.

Now i also become interested to get married. LOL.

love♥

DyaJ

Random much.

2011-01-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

Life's getting hectic. Assignments bertaburan berciciran everywhere and i am still, happily strumming on guitar la, singing and stuff, sleep early as if tomorrow is free from classes blablabla. Society's events to cater, juniors to meet, seniors to talk, blablabla.

My planner is bad. It has less space for me to scribble and draw.

I miss the House M.D series. on ~~afc~~AXN.

Aisyah is sewing. Marhanis is watching tv. Mira is sleeping. Faey too. Monmon is err idk-what-she's-doing.

Kenapa Shah Alam sejuk? Menggeletar seyh.

Serious, i tak suka bila chatbox group PLKN tu keluar dekat fb. motiff.

There's one part in the relationship, i mean family relationship that we cannot interfere to in reference to our standard and position in the family itself. Like you cannot interfere if your mother is fighting or having misunderstanding with her siblings or something because you are not up to the standard, you have no right to interfere with those. Because it will bring more harm than cure. Let them be. Just let them.

Okay apa aku merepek tetiba. -_-

I laugh when i write this entry. Dang i also don't know why. Hahah

I named him Arthur. Because he's cute and the name is nice.

ps: Brrrrrrr. I'm freezing.

love ♥

DyaJ

Daisy?

2011-01-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

I saw a card pasted at one of my roommate's cupboards' door. and it says :

Dang bad handwriting! Blame the mouse! Haha

I was bored so i drew it and somehow i found it cute and i posted it here. Haha. By the way, the real one is much nicer and neat. Haha. I guess it is daisy.

ps: Because I'm happy when you're happy. :) Good luck.

love ♥
dyaJ

Picisan

2011-01-12T08:16:00.000+08:00

I want to sleep but I can't tonight. Not yet. I was asked by someone about love. My interpretations and perceptions of love from my point of view which i don't really have the answer yet since we all know that love is a subjective issue. It can be discussed but it can't be proven, i mean, the real meaning of it. No exact meaning and that makes my life miserable. Haha. Because me too, i don't know the real meaning and as for me, it is really difficult to relinquish between really like and love. And also crush and love. Or are they of the same thing? See, i get confused again.

The thing is, everyone wants to get married and have their own family. Like, who doesn't want to have your own husband/wife and children and be a happy family now, and always? Here comes all the problems then. I used to think, 10 years later than now ( okay fine tiru Tun M haha) I always think, like let's say i get married now, yes maybe i will be happy with my husband and etc etc but what will happened next? where will i stay? And can i take care of the things like how my mom did to us? Okay, yes i think i can do that but, but, but... you see, i have doubts in myself. I know i am capable of doing those but i guess the time did not arrived yet for me to move on to the next phase of my life.

I want to get married but i don't have any clue about that yet. I want my marriage to last until the last breath of mine. I don't want to have it half way; that will be very depressing and sad.

Because I believe marriage is the peak point where your direction of life changes. And I want it to be happy changes and not the other way round.

Love ♥
dyaJ

Paintings and me.

2011-01-10T03:30:00.001+08:00

I love to paint. I joined painting classes when i was 13 and 14 and i drew things and sceneries. Though i entered classes, I didn't take Art as additional subject during my SPM. Because I think Art is not easy. I am not that creative and i believe my drawing skills are at the lowest standard. I can't draw people like some of my friends do. I can only draw sceneries but those were not as good as they could be. I don't really fancy paintings eventhough sometimes i am embraced and amazed of how hardworking and how creative those artists' mind were.

And i believe paintings reflect life. We draw things that we feel and see. A way to express oneself. To convey messages and to share feelings. To allow you to feel what i feel and to give you intuition on what i could see beyond me.

And I think music and paintings are of the same theme and concept. Expressions.

I don't have the slightest idea when i clicked Paint and drew this. Haha.

Love ♥

dyaJ

All five things to say.

2011-01-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

One.
God had created men and women as couples so that they can complete each other. I used to have a special someone before. Like ages ago, haha but somehow i always have an issue of which let's say i have a boyfriend now, would we last until our last breath? Like, what is the purpose of me having someone who i loved so much when at the end of the day he left me for another woman? I guess, i am the only one who have that feelings. The insecure feelings and stuff which have resulted to the feeling of mistrust towards men. Haha.

Okay fine now i dont know why i write about this.
Let's just wait, and see.

Two.
I don't know actually what made me cried in the literature class today. The poem touched me. Really. Haha. Memalukan siot -_-

Three.
New neighbours. Music students. Those Mechanical Engineering students had moved which leave us a deep scar. HAHA.

Four.
Empathy is a great thing one should develop in oneself. You have to empathy on others so that you could understand him/her. One thing i don't understand is that some people lack this empathy thingy in themselves, so they will easily judge people. Like hey, i have feelings too. I don't cheat on things unless i need to do that, like really really need to do that. And when i say things, i say real thing. And when i say it can be everyone, it can be everyone. No hidden message. No hidden secrets or whatsoever you called it. Please.

Oh yeah, people called that TRUST.

Five.
Playing new songs with guitar is a fun thing to do. Especially when you can play your current favourite song, like Grenade and Speechless.

Okay. Cukuplah for tonight.

I wanna continue strumming.

Love ♥
dyaJ

not a good start.

2011-01-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

Somebody said problems should be called challenges. I don't know what i called them. But one thing for sure, i have to encounter some of them.

And i don't have the idea how.

p.s : Muka cover hebat ketika bermasalah sudah pudar. shaite.

love ♥

dyaJ

Second last.

2010-12-31T13:36:00.000+08:00

1. When i'm alone, my wild imaginations will appear. I will imagine things to occur. Like, when i was lying freely on bed at 7 in the morning, came Hugh Laurie asking me to be his tour guide not in Malaysia but in Italy. Then, suddenly, I met one guy, and he suddenly ask for my hand in marriage. He is my long lost contact friend, he's pfft. The imagination stops there, before i imagine i am one of the character in Phineas and Ferb. No, I'm the new character, not Candice.

2. I used to have an anonymous pet tortoise and we took care of it since he (or she?) was small until he (okay dia jantz) grew into a big tortoise before i decided to let it go in a swamp somewhere on the way to Segari; there's a big hutan paya bakau or something where they have kolam udang di sana. The next day, really early in the morning my brother buang dia dalam longkang buatan di hadapan rumah. -_-

3. I have tons of books at home, basically they are magazines which i collected since 15 and everytime i look back at those, i don't have any idea on how can i spend so much money for such magazines when actually the price of each mag was rm4.90 and only get not more than rm15 per week. Other than magazines, the rest are text books and revision books yang tebal gila tu.

4. So, i have a self- conflict whether to throw them away, recycle or just keep em.

5. When i was small, i watched horror movies. Plus, i have a collection; of Siri Mak Lampir, seriously she had fiery hair and superpowers. She can fly. She's scary. Now, I don't have the slightest idea where all the guts go. Sigh. So, pernah dengar Mak Lampir?

6. Usually, before i go to sleep, i will imagine things, or at least one thing and create a storyline within it, hoping it will appear in my dreams. This is fun because sometimes, the storyline evolves. Cool.

7. I see tall guys as superheroes. I don't know why did this happen. I think i like tall guys. Ahem ahem.

8. A friend added me in our PLKN group. Awesome, i thought. Since i'll be able to reminisce and replenish back the memories back in the camp plus the friendship could be made stronger. However, when i look through the group and members in it, lah, tak ramai pun yg kenal. -_- haha.

9. Some friends called me D. Amboi. Haha.

10. Fasya asked me to treat her double layer Faber Castell's color pencil whe she's already in Standard Three. I don't think they'll do so much colouring in Standard Three. 52 colours guna nak buat apabenda entah. Hek eleh sangat. Membazir pandai bebudak sekarang.

So it would be the second last post for the last day of the last month of 2010. With the least amount of posts that is 9. Great. Terbukti bila berlambak masa kau taknak tulis, bila takde masa, busy bagai baru nak gelabah tulis banyakbanyak. hahah.

A year is not that long i guess. In fact, it's getting faster nowadays. Who could've imagine i'll enter the fourth semester, nearly the end of the 2nd year of studying. What could i say, in couple of months i'll turn 1221. Voila!

love ♥
dyaJ.

Us

2010-12-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hoah. The wedding didn't evolve around the bride and the groom only, we as cousins were having our sweet time too. Like heyho, we know how to fill the free time yaw. Haha.

" Hey adik akak kecik besar mari tangkap gambarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr". Smile everyone.

Okay, thank you. bagi chance kanak2 kecil pulak.

Cukup adik adik. Budak kecil, you don't have to pose that much. Bagi kitorang pulak.

Hoyeah!

-_-

Love ♥

dyaJ

BerryBerry

2010-12-22T14:58:00.000+08:00

Entah, i found it and i still playing it. Come and join me. Main sekarang dan dapatkan Blackberry untuk keseronokan berpanjangan :)

love♥
dyaJ

Sebab Podubdub

2010-12-21T01:35:00.000+08:00

Such a long time since i last posted any tagged entries. Muahaha. Being at home, watching Phineas and Ferb, favourite cartoon at favourite channel, DisneyCh saluran 615. berjiwa kekanak diusia belia. Oh new semester is just around the corner, less than 2 weeks. And and and, blurghhhh. *speechless.

Been spending days to think what to write about. Like, kalau nak tulis pasal apobondo den buek kat umah ni sumpah la nak tulih pun den maleh. So, thanks to Podubdub because she gave me this taggy-taggy thingy to me. Merci beauccoup.* brushing up my french.ohmymy next sem's french 2! *faint. hoho buka buku langsung tak.

Okay. sudah. teruskan.

Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup anda?

Apa benda? Banyak benda. pelbagai. Lappy, and obviously my ~~hair~~ money. Wey money is dang important wey. Haha let's say if i was lost in a town which i've never been to and hungry, then what can i use to buy food? moneyyyyy kan. haha. Okay okay. It's my purse kot, with some money and stuff macam cards blablabla.Eh? ye ke? Macam ni lah. takde yang paling penting. Semuaaaa penting. hahaha.

Benda terakhir yang korang beli pakai duit sendiri?

Cornetto Showmeyourlove Blackforest flirt icecreams. Dua pulak tu.

Di mana tempat korang nak melangsungkan perkahwinan & apa tema perkahwinan korang?

Mak kata buat di rumah tapi saya kurang bersetuju sebab kalau ada pemodalan berhad saya nak buat di tempat istimewa macam di ajbshs atau di akjshwj. Tapi takpelah we'll wait and see. Jangan risau semua akan dijemput ya! Haha, bajet dah ade calon kan. Wahaha. Oh tema pula tak pasti, mungkin Melayu kontemporari atau yang urban urban nanti. Warna ungu ye semua. Sila kumpul duit beli baju sekarang. -_- haha

Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

Saya adalah seekor Optimus Prime. Entah la babe. Biarkan hati berbisik, tak berbisik pula dia time time gini.

Berapa lama lagi korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

Toot. qwertyuiop

Novel/buku/majalah yang terakhir korang beli?

Beli? Abah beli. Harian Metro dan The Star setiap hari.

Antara mak ayah korang, mana korang lebih mesra?

Mesra? Bob mesra? Mak.

Namakan orang yang betul2 korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang.

Hurm. tak terfikir. Nak fikir ni mau makan dua malam.

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

Mestilah washing machine yang basuhkan. Tapi pegi buat sendiri aa.

Di manakah tempat yang korang btol2 nak pergi?

Destinasi backpacking yang telah dirancang tapi tatau boleh terlaksana ke tak. Haha. Serious nak pegi situ. Best woh!

Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?

Second option please. Haha.

Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang tag anda.

Popodubdub. Ikhlas nama gelaran from me. Pasni memang nama kau tu la Po.

Putih, bulat dan chomel ~~fastdangarang.~~

Duduk kat Klang. kan popodubdub kan?

Benda yang paling korang sayang dalam hidup korang?

Rambut wey. Serious. Paling sayang. Pastu lappy,purse,phone,kasut,make-ups,dan lainlain.

5 lagu yang korang suka & selalu dengar.

Grenade - Bruno Mars

In My Head - Bukan Jason Derulo punya tapi yang Justin Robinett punya cover.

Teenage Dream - Yang AlexGoot punya cover

Parachute - Cheryl Cole

Valentine - Kina Grannis

5 blogger yang dipertanggungjawabkan untuk jawab tag ini.

BeachFriends.

NaimFatah yaw.

You. haah, you. Kamu!

Love ♥

DyaJ.

2010-12-16T22:01:00.001+08:00

He PM-ed me in one of the social networking site when actually i was not in front of the lappy. We kinda talked one or two sentences before something went wrong with my lappy, it was actually lagging, (motif sangat semua benda nak stuck kat situ hish geram hakuh) and i didn't have the chance to read what he wrote before me.

(Merepek2 juga di situ dalam 25 saat setengah)

I gave him a call. I waited for few seconds before i heard his voice. Nothing changed in his voice. Like always, he has a slow-toned voice. Somehow, i can feel the nervousness (haha, i think so) inside it. I felt nervous too. :)

I felt so excited i can't stop smiling throughout the conversation.

Just then, i started to reminisce the best times we had together.

love♥
dyaJ

Cisse.

2010-12-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

Bila aku kata, aku rasa orang Sri Lanka (khususnya kawan kawan baru aku) sangat baik dengan aku, eventhough aku rasa aku kadang kadang nakal juga dengan diorang dan aku juga bukannya terus bagi remarks yang diorang ni baik secara mem(masukkan nama haiwan disini) buta saja, tetapi ini berdasarkan pengalaman aku menjadi kawan diorang yang pada awalnya bermula dengan kosong menjadi perhubungan yang boleh tahan agak rapat sebab lebih kurang dua minggu bersama, tapi kau sedap sedap kata,

aku puji orang luar lebih lagi dari orang kita sendiri. Apakes?

Kau kata aku dilayan baik sebab aku jaga diorang, aku dah kenal diorang, aku dah baik dengan diorang semua kebaikan diorang aku nampak, sebab aku tak jumpa lagi orang yang jahat dari negara diorang dan pelbagai benda lagilah kau nak kata. Kau kata aku saja yang rasa diorang baik padahal kau tak rasa pun macam tu. Kau kata aku judgmental terhadap orang sendiri. Ni lagi satu apakes?

Cakap pasal judgmentalism, aku disini nak kata kat kau, kau tu yang lebih-lebih berbanding aku. Aku cuma bandingkan orang kita dengan kawan-kawan baru aku tu berdasarkan apa yang aku lalui sepanjang aku dengan diorang dan sepanjang 20 tahun aku hidup dekat Malaysia ni. Aku tak pernah kata orang kita jahat gila ke apa, aku takde pulak kata diorang tu jugak terlalu baik ke apa. Tapi kau? Kau bagi diorang remarks. Remarks yang setiap kali aku dengar, kecil hati aku, sebab apa aku kecil hati? Sebab mereka tu kawan aku jugak.

Even kalau orang yang kita tak kenal bagi remarks kat kau, aku kecil hati, silap2 aku marah.

Macamana aku dengan kau, macam tu juga aku dengan diorang.

Bukan kenalan yang sekadar dia request aku approve, bukan ya, bukan.

Ya lah, aku tak avant-grande macam kau.

Sudahlah. Aku nak layan lagu Grenade.

Love ♥

DyaJ

Esok hui.

2010-12-09T23:19:00.001+08:00

Okay, so last few days, like i told you, my cousin got married with a woman (ewah, woman kann) okay, a lady from Negeri Sombilan, yang kaya dengan adat perpatih ~~tuk putih~~. So we were like having fun la jugak, we went tu Istana Seri Menanti; the istana they said was built without nails etc etc. Tapi takut woooo, there were creepy feelings when i entered the Istana. Macam diperhatikan, really. That was the real Istana, they had once live in there for years then suddenly they converted it into a museum so dia macam scary sikit. Pfft. And the place I tell you, tremendous humongous, 4 storeys! Hah! Go and have a visit.

So, kahwin la cousinku itu. With my younger brother as the man of honour. ( eh, ye ke?) or the best man. So before we went to the rombongan mempelai or whatever they called it, we did some cam-whoring sessions ya. Ahaha. Macam hari raya pulaks dah.

Oh, no no. This was not the Istana you alls. Ini rumah jiran pengantin punya atoks.

Tapi bukan itu point dia sebenarnya. The point is that tomorrow, 10th December, is the date when the results will be out. and and, my bro's 17th birthday. So, dia macam takde feelings. Nak gembira ke nak biasa-biasa ke apa tak tahu la. Lol.

p.s : Dah besar adek saya.

heart-less.

2010-12-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

I don't know. You tell me :)

5th UiSF 2010

2010-12-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

Okay, yeah, again this year, i became Liason Officer for the 5th UiTM Sports Fiesta 2010, together with Cik Fana. :) and few friends; and this year we took care those 50 athletes from University of Ruhuna, Sri Lanka. 50 ye, 50. Hebat kannn?

New friends, old friends. Lots of things learnt. And yeah, we had fun.

Universitas Internasional Batam, Indonesia's guys.
Old friends did come back :)

Yoshan. He's a rugby player. Kinda tough kan? haha.

Setengah badminton, setengah rugby.

There's only a few. I didn't bring any camera so jawabnya gambar takdela banyak. Ni pun gambar tagged kat FB. :)

Kesimpulannya, selagi tak cuba, kita tak tahu. Sometimes, things are not like what we expected. I guess, if you don't know or try, you better don't say things. :) Seriously.

Love ♥,
DyaJ.

2010-12-02T03:03:00.000+08:00

I have to attend a cousin's wedding on the 3rd you know. and my team, those from the University of Ruhuna will also leave on the 3rd which is very upsetting since i have to find ways to be able to attend both events. My dad called me, asking me whether i can go home somewhere earlier but how can i leave my team just like that?

Yeah, UiSF was fun. Despite some occurrence few days ago, I was having so much fun doing things like talking and laughing with my team, the ruggers and the badminton players. They were fun and nice. and cute. :) Haha.

p.s : Looking forward to meet them next year.

I'll miss them. Surely.

2010-11-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.
Yea yea.

:)

*speechless

goodnight butterflies.
I'm exhausted.

ps: Sri Lankans are nice and cute. Tak sangka mereka yang bermain ragbi sangat handsome. :D